We have continued time outs but they are not as bad as a few days ago. I think he knows I mean business. It feels good as a mom to stick to my guns and be consistent. My mom was over the other day when Max wanted a popsicle and Max knows that we have popsicles after we eat our dinner but it was before dinner and he wanted one and I said NO! Well he threw himself on the floor and was screaming and crying and kicking and my mom gave me that look..the why can’t you give it to him look!! Now some of you may think that this is because she is a grandma but now-she never said NO to me ever and still to this day I have such trouble when people  say NO-I almost think that it means they do not love me. So anyway, I am not repeating what was done in my childhood. I told my mom he would be fine and he would get over it but she still looked so upset. Tough because Max needs to know there are consistent rules in this house.

So it has been a tough lesson in the past week with Max and his new found persistent toddler behavior. Sometimes I just want to scream and pull my hair out and yes, sometimes I lose it but at the end of the day-I love my kids so much and I am so happy they are both in my life-even the annoying times. Check out these pics. Too cute, huh?

This is our typical morning. Yes, Max is making some funky face.

And then typical-happy toddler right after being funky. 

This is my little sweetie looking very cute.

Max’s new backpack!

And more tummy time for Samantha!!

Samantha Jane has arrived and we are so happy she is here. I gave birth naturally to Samantha December 7th at 5:30 am. She was 6 pounds 15 ounces and 19.5 inches long. I did however manage to pull off Max’s birthday party, make all the cupcakes and have fun while in early labor. I will post later about the birth and how Samantha is doing. She is adorable and Max has been a great big brother. 

My Dearest Little Boy,

I am always amazed by how much you change even daily. I am watching all of your pants become what is called “Floods” because you are growing so rapidly. You are actually three inches taller than your dad was at your age and three pounds heavier. I guess your momma made you some great breast milk when you were a baby..who knows. I am always happy when people say you are big because usually our people, the JEWS, are not very tall and so I am so proud of your height. Clearly it does not come from me, since I am not even 5 feet tall, but maybe from your Great Grandfather, Max Benjamin, who you are named after.

You are starting to talk more and more. You still like to call your Dad Ba and Grandpa is Pa. You like to make sounds of animals and especially the dog and the monkey. You also love to read Brown Bear Brown Bear, What do you see? You read every page with me. It is very cute. You can say TY for your friend Tyler and you like to blabber but not too much. I always think about your homeopath, who said that you would not talk until you could do it perfectly (he said this to me about a year ago). 

I watched you last week be so kind to a baby at your friends house. Your friend Max just became a big brother and you were helping his Mom while she was nursing. You wanted to bring the baby all of his blankets and stuffed animals. It was adorable. You also rubbed the baby’s leg while the baby was sleeping. You are going to be such an amazing big brother.

You are still the sweetest boy I know. I do look and see if there are others but there is something so special about you and how you treat the world. I looked at  Montessori school for you for Sept of 2009 because of the love and the free thinking that is taught at Montessori schools. I am making sure that wherever you may go a few mornings a week will honor your independent thinking.

We have gone through a lot of sicknesses lately. You and I went to see Maia at the Apothecary Garden and she recommended that we go off of wheat and gluten because we are both getting sick so much. Momma knows she does not do well with either and always figured that you had issues as well but we will find out. You are so my kid with all my good and bad.

So anyway, as always I love you and am honored to be your mom. I am honored to travel this conscious journey with you. I love you. I will always love you. Thank you Max!

Love, Momma

Here it is a a few days late. We took this picture on Sunday. I have not been the best at blogging lately and I do miss blogging but I just dont have the energy. I know that sounds crazy but my mind is in so many other places. I also have no slept that great this week and whenever that happens-I use my energy to take care of Max and myself and well the hubby gets the remaining. 

So it is getting close. I will actually be 37 weeks this Friday and I am amazed that we are going to meet this little girl soon. I have been worrying about our sleep situation with Max and the new baby but after talking to a friend, a stranger, my hubby and our pediatrician-I have let go. I know that it will work out. I just have that feeling that everything is going to be ok. I think it was important for me to honor my fears and because of it-well I worked on it and now they seem to have vanished for now. I am just now getting everything ready. The furniture arrives Thursday and the drapes get installed Friday. I need to wash clothes and buy a few onsies and stuff like that but as for everything else, we still have all the STUFF from Max so it just seems easier.

As for me, I have gained about 24 1/2 pounds and I am amazed that I have gained so little. I feel like I am eating so much more than when I was pregnant with Max but who knows.

It is going to be a few busy weeks weeks. I have doctors apt for max and myself and Max’s birthday party is in 2 weeks. Any ideas for party favors?

Well hopefully I can blog a little more and catch up on y reading of the blogs I follow.