I swore I would never get on a plane without my babies but I did it. For 3 days I went to Florida..one to relax and two to look at houses because we are thinking of moving. I have realized that I am either a city girl or a beach girl and we, the hubby and I, do the best near the water. So we would not be living on the beach, Geez, that would would be so money money but we would be about 15 minutes from the beach.

The first day I felt so lost and not to mention the father, who I knew at the airport, saying good bye to his little boy, who was going with Nana to Florida and the boy was crying and he looked like Max..I had to walk away because tears were falling down my face. But I got called home, left a book of “what to do with the kids stuff” and boarded the plane. There was a weird sense of calm despite the fact that I have never been away from my kids except when I gave birth to Samantha and Max was much younger so this was a lot.

I stayed at PGA golf resort and spa so I could look at the Palm Beach Gardens area and loved it. I of course am torn..my family lives here and well it is a lot to move and i HATE change but I know this is what is the best for us as a family. So we are cleaning up the house, touching up the paint in certain areas and listing it in 2 weeks for the spring buyers. This is so scary and exciting and I am sure you will hear about my back and forth feelings about this one..but I want a slower life for us-especially my kids. I want to be outside all year in a slower life.

I had a great trip and a great massage. Even little things like watching a movie without the fear of a baby waking up-a night without a kid waking up..my time..my schedule..it was so nice. I looked at house with an agent and we decided on the community. I looked at schools and have a sense of where Max and samantha would go to school. I came back a little bitchy because I was scared that this was so right but I am better now. I am not the best at this kind of stuff. Some people welcome change, I get excited and then freak out and then get sad and then get angry.

Between the kids, school and my own head that seems to go in circles often, I have not been blogging much and I miss it so much..just having a place to let go.

So I did it..I graduated in the mommyhood of being able to let my kids know that it is ok for mommy to go away and come back..I guess it is really a big message-that I can take care of myself and still be a good mom..also forgot to mention the guilt when I left but by the second day it was gone..I had to remember that by doing this I would be a better mom anyway..refreshed again.

So Max got a buzz cut for the summer and he looks so grown up.

Sam is getting cuter by the day and I am praying that she keeps those blue eyes just like her momma.

She is just plain adorable.

My little ones in the am watching TV.

A momma and her little girl.

Life is good at the beach!

So we arrived Monday. It was a little crazy getting here but we arrived. The house is so beautiful. I love it. The kitchen is white and the house is an open layout and we are just a walk to the bay or the beach.

Just in the past 2 days Sam has rolled over from her back to front and I swear is eating pizza late at night cause she looks huge. Max has a crew cut for the summer and not because I chose that. Max had his hair cut the other day and my sitter took him and he cried endlessly and so the cut was not so good so I thought the hubby should shave it since ALL boys know how to cut hair.WRONG!! not my hubby so he shaved a test run from front to back-GO FIGURE. I cursed, he yelled, I cursed, he cursed and I cried. I took Max, who was screaming bloody murder to the kid barber for an emergency shave. I had to hold him down in a wrestling move but he actually looks adorable.  Yeah he is that kid that screams with snot coming out of his nose and mouth. 

Regardless we made it but I did not lock the front door. yes you heard me. It was not locked because my mom had come over and I guess she just closed the door and I never checked it so our alarm went off last night because it just opened with the rains and the wind. I was amazed that the hubby was so sweet and understanding. He is generally very calm with that stuff but come on the front door. he just said that we all make mistakes and it was a crazy day. What a sweetie.

So Sam is not sleeping. I know she is teething really bad and will only sleep after a small dose of tylenol. She also will only sleep in her swing. UGH! She also does not like food at all. Could this all be teeth? I knew over the past 3 weeks that she was getting bad since she was sleeping half the night in her swing and if not, she screamed and screamed bloody murder. Daphne Goldberg, her doctor and I felt that it was more important to have her sleep that to force her to sleep in her crib but do they make swings that can hold a baby past 20 pounds. I know she is in pain and so I just dont have the heart to let her scream. I know she knows how to sleep and I know she is in discomfort. I tried giving her some homeopathy, Chamomilla 30c, and it seemed to work for a little but did not hold. I will probably call the homeopath today. Teething sucks. 

But the beach is awesome and as soon as I get the camera charged I will upload some pics. We will be here for 10 weeks and already I feel relaxed.I found a local moms group that is letting me join for the summer. I am so psyched.

We took a 7 day vacation to Orlando Florida and the hubby forgot the computer. Thank goodness it was not my mistake. LOL

The flight down was great and the flight back was not so bad but Sam’s ears were hurting her and for a little she was not that happy. So I put her in the Baby Bjorn and she loved that. My friend just gave me one and Sam adores it. I have so many other slings but never used that one and it was a life saver on the trip. I do have to say that traveling is not easy with young ones because you just never know what to expect. But we upgraded for a little extra that day and it made all the difference to be in business class.

Max adored Sea World but did not love Disney World. I am not sure if the crowds or the waiting in line got to him or the fact that I chose the wrong park-he only watches PBS and not anything else so he really does not know the characters. I think he would have loved animal kingdom but I won’t go back till they are older. I do not know how people do that for 7 days with real little ones because I was so damn tired after a day. Now Sea World was a blast and all of the shows were amazing. 

We hung out at the pool, ordered tons of room service, and ate like pigs. We celebrated our 3rd anniversary on the 25th and my birthday on the 28th. Scot and I went out for our anniversary for the first time ALONE since Sam was born and it was amazing. Scott sent roses to the room that am and that eve I had the restaurant make us desserts according to our diet needs and had them write I LOVE YOU SCOTT on his plate. It was so sweet and hey, I also got him drunk. What fun!!

We had a blast and now we are home trying to get back into schedule. I miss having my bed made, calling for food and waited on hand and foot but it is good to be back.

Here are some pictures from the trip. 

this is at sea world

and this is us bathing sam…

max eating chips in the room

just the two of us laughing

enjoying some shade..

Sitting on a metal turtle at Sea World

And Shamu-the whale..

All in all it was great to get away-be with the kids and enjoy my husband. Now we are back to reality.

Yep I got the cold from my son who got it from his sitter, but who really knows, since he loves to eat off the floor, touch everything and constantly is playing around other kids. I am just hoping that the baby does not get sick. I hate being sick. I am sure my body just could not fight the lack of sleep (due to the 2 year old molars) and two nights where I could not sleep ( not due to children, but just could not sleep).

So I have very little energy to write about anything except that Mom’s should not ever get sick because our job does not end.

Good news! We rented a shore house on Long Beach Island for 9 weeks this summer! Yeah, here is the house!

So there it is. At least I am thinking warm summer beach house when I have a cold. There is always some good coming my way.