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A post about me and the MOVE

Rachel — Fri, 13 Aug 2010 09:47:43 +0000

So yes we are moving and it is to BOCA Raton, Florida. We were originally looking at Jupiter but the house fell through and I could not find a Montessori school that I loved and so Boca just kept pulling me closer but I have to admit and I can saying this being Jewish…that i always feared the Boca Jew but I have realized that no matter where you go-you find those people and I will find those people that I click with. We are in full force packing mode. I have been crying but a good cry and more because I saw a few friends that i will truly miss who have been in my life and are so important to me. One especially I will miss and I think she and I could be sisters in this life and then I have another one that we really could be sisters but she is not married nor a mom and so we just don’t share as much of that stuff..both I adore. I have spent the past few weeks going out to dinner with a friend and having a one on one dinner and it was so special-laughing and crying and talking about the wonderful trips we will have in the future together and all the 7 am talks we will have when we are both falling apart..

Boxes are packed and the packers come on the 24th and then pack the kitchen, art work, the TV’s and then they load the 25th and then we are out of here the 26th and close the 27th. We leave Philly the 28th for Florida and I am excited and sad. I am looking forward to a new life for my family but will miss what I know. I like knowing things and having the comfort of my surroundings but this experience is teaching me a whole lot about just trusting and I feel so close to my husband despite the many annoyances we have daily with moving questions but I think that is standard.

I do feel a little nutty and I am not sleeping much..i feel like I wake up with a slight heart attack and then I re-group and tell myself it will all be ok. I have picked out carpet, wall colors and we are re-doing the kitchen and different color and new appliances. I am getting a baby gate for the pool and well there are just lots of little things that need to be done.

I also am behind in school and have a test soon, which I am sure I will do fine but I am still feeling pulled in every different direction.

I am happy that we are finding a place that we can all be together and all be well…and I am hoping we have found the place and if not..well nothing is forever and this move has helped me to understand that..

The move is probably happening..

Rachel — Fri, 28 May 2010 09:32:06 +0000

So we took the house off the market and then a couple who had come to out one open house fell in love and I know why they did..because we did a lot of work to the house and is has beautiful Calico curtains and a sauna and a finished basement and tons of upgrades we did to the house because we thought we would be here forever. Well they made and offer and we accepted. We are finished with the inspection period and they have 3 days to put down hard money but they also have a mortgage contingency that end July 1 st. So it is not definite but I am 90% sure we are moving. We found this amazing DREAM house in Jupiter, Florida that they are building right now-WOW new construction with my dream kitchen and an outdoor kitchen too ..oh and also a pool. It is in a community with a playground and shops and an elementary school right in the development. It is pretty cool. It is based on the concept of urbanism-work, play and live.

So the hubby and I fly down Monday and meet with the developer on Tuesday and walk through the house. I feel at this point i have cried all the tears, been angry, felt annoyed, been sad, been scared and now I have just let go and accepted that this is what is best for my family. I want my husband to feel well and up north his psoriasis is bad. He has been going to doctors to find out about embrel, but that is an immune suppressing drug and that is scary to us because any cold or virus could essentially kill him. So moving is the answer and now that I am through all those feelings I am getting excited.

I am looking for a nanny to help me a little, searching for a school for Max and finding out about speech therapy in Florida. The move would be the end of August and we would be living down in Florida, hopefully chillin and building a new life for us. I know I will meet people but it is also hard to start new. I know it is a lot of mommy classes with Samantha and playgrounds with the kids and finding those moms to become friends with again. It is hard but I know I can do it and I have to do it for the sake of my family. I am happy is my family is happy and truthfully, I think this move will be amazing for all of us…a slower way of life and we are 4 miles from the beach. WOW.

So I will keep you posted..it is all good and I guess that is what I finally realized..we will be fine no matter where we are as long as we are healthy and together.

Spring Festival Last weekend!

Rachel — Mon, 03 May 2010 10:21:08 +0000

We were at a great spring festival last weekend. There was a petting zoo, slides, fire trucks and lots of games for the kids. We all went together, which was really a lot of fun. Max and Samantha both had a great time. Max is getting so much better at going into places with tons of people. I think he is just getting older and more confident. There were fire trucks and that made his day. It is so funny because Scott could not get Max to look at the camera but I am sure you get the idea. Of course the minute the camera was away he was having a ton of fun again.

I swear I look at this picture and wonder where my little boy is because he looks so grown up. I am amazed at how fast the time is going even though some days feels so long.

Now Miss Samantha was having a love affair with this rabbit. It was really cute because they had three sections the gate was low enough that she could reach the animals. There were chickens and two kinds of rabbits but this one was her favorite. It was so cute to watch. She was being so gentle too and I was really proud of her.

Max also enjoyed feeding the goats and sheep. It was so much fun. They had little bowls of food for $1.

We had a wonderful time despite the total mommy move on my part. First off, it was hotter than I thought and both my kids had long sleeve and pants on and then the stroller that I keep in my truck needed air in the tires. Those are both total mommy moves but at least nobody looked really hot and nobody would have known that it was hard to push the stroller with no air in the tires. I swear my brain can only hold so much information at one time.

As for the move, we have decided to delay the move either till december if a buyer is willing to wait that long or next summer. It just felt rushed and Max is not fully potty trained and so I was becoming insane. Bottom line:insane mother = insane family. So I let go and said this is when I can do it and we will see if it works but at least I let it go and are getting back to normal-slowly-FYI-I don’t do change well and admire people that can. Those type of people give me hope for myself. LOL

I live in a museum..

Rachel — Sat, 17 Apr 2010 10:17:56 +0000

I am happy we are getting a lot of interest with our house being on the market but exhausting-it is so clean and pristine. I live in a clean house to begin with..I like things to be clean and in order..I am not super organized but I dont enjoy dirt or things being real messy-it makes my brain feel crazy..but this is just crazy. We have no pictures up. I am cleaning non stop and wiping things down. I dont even have knives or cooking utensils on the counter but the house looks amazing and shows so well. We have has two open houses and about 15 people walk through our house. We have a couple coming today to take another look.

I am happy and sad at the same time. I am happy because the health of my family with greatly improve with the move but sad because I adore my friends, my sitter and Max’s school. I will of course be so sad to not be near my parents of scott;s mom but after this past winter and all the health issues with Scott’s skin-well it is time. I know that Max is so much less allergic in the summer and well my general anxiety just does better in a slower pace life. It is good and not good. I have been feeling really stressed from all of this. I am trying to look at this as an adventure but it is hard. I have worked so hard to build a life here but I know that I will do it again. I know the health of my hubby is huge for our life. He has psoriasis that is arthritic and each year it is getting worse. I know Max is so much better in the summer. I know I need sun and well Samantha, despite not liking the sand or grass to touch her feet, will love being in limited clothing.

Life will be good and I have to keep looking toward the future and not the now..because right now I am just sad, annoyed and happy..strange mix of emotions but so true.

As for the kiddos, been a rough patch with detox with Max. He was actually having some issues with his speech, that was going so great, and I was warned that as he detoxed this may happen but I took the steps to start and remyelinate his nerves and things seem to be getting better again. Remyelination is a term for the re-generation of the nerve’s myelin sheath. When there is a huge dump of heavy metals or gut bugs, then sometimes, there is a loss of speech because the actual nerves in your body need to be re-coated. Crazy huh but I was also told this is a great sign that he is getting better. So he is taking a lot of spirulina and ashwaganda. I am aslso giving him an RNA made by Dr Amy Yasko called Nerve Coat and this seems to be helping a lot as well. It has just be a tough week. Tomorrow I will post some great pics and other wonderful updates.

I am just hoping we have an offer soon so we can stop the museum like living..

Nothing works better than cooking and baking..

Rachel — Thu, 05 Jul 2007 23:23:45 +0000

Ever get totally stressed and then you go nutty in the kitchen?

I made 2 batches of home made protein bars for Scott. Ingredients were:

Oats
Millet Flour
Soy Flour
Brown Rice Syrup
Pumpkin
Carrots
Raisins
1 Egg (1 batch with and 1 without)
Cinnamon

Then I made a soup for me. Ingredients were:

Veggie Stock
Kombu, which is this
Azuki Beans
Lentils
Celery
Butternut Squash

It was so yummy.

I also had a good cry this am and my hubby is great..he just listened and did not offer an advice. He did say that it would take time and he is right.

I took a drive down to Essene Market, here , and bought a new Juicer and picked up our box of wheat grass. I also had some lunch. Then I went to see my best girlfriend and did some gabbing, which made everything feel ok again. Max slept on the way home and well, I felt normal. It is going to take time and I just can’t go and create it in 2 weeks, which is what I thought I could do. Yeah Superwoman Syndrome.

Overwhelmed

Rachel — Thu, 05 Jul 2007 14:37:33 +0000

So I have been MIA because I am just feeling overwhelmed from the Move. I know we mde the right decision to move but it all feels like too much. I DO NOT DO CHANGE VERY WELL. I know it will take time to get used to my new surroundings but I just hate feeling this way. I hate feeling off. I know it will pass and I know I have tons of people around me to support me but my personality is that I do not like to depend on people..yeah this clearly does not work but it is who I am.

I have worked hard to reach out to people and I have gotten so much better but I still am an Aries Ram-strong willed and bull headed. I am hoping that the old me-the one who laughs and appreciates the good in life will come back soon.

We made it..We survived the move..

Rachel — Sun, 24 Jun 2007 02:32:59 +0000

We are all here and have unpacked most of the stuff. Max was an amazing mover. I think he liked watching the guys going up and down the stairs. He kept laughing and smiling. Then he blessed me with falling asleep as we were leaving the old house on the way to our new house and FYI, the movers were following me so it was extra special blessing..not that the movers wouldn’t have understood me bending over my kids car seat with my boob in his mouth..hehehe..TO ALL THE BREASTFEEIDNG MOMS, YOU KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT!!

It was wonderful to go to sleep in the quiet burbs. I never thought I would say that but it was nice and today..well, it was wonderful to take Max outside and just sit with the dogs. It was great.

As for Max, no blood and no vomit but we are still going to the GI doctor in July. I know it is food allergies but maybe they will tell me something I don’t know and maybe it is just good to get him checked out.

So I survived and I realized that the anticipation was killing me because the day we needed to move..all of my anxiety went away. Thank Goodness because I gained about 4 pounds during this move. UGH!

I will take some PICS and post tomorrow.

Blood in the stool & The Move

Rachel — Thu, 21 Jun 2007 23:08:38 +0000

We are packed and ready to go. We move in the morning.

But my morning started with Max thowing up bile 3 times. He also had some blood in his stool. A day ago his babysitter gave him a state of water ice without knowing that he has serious corn allergies. He has had blood in his stool before due to food allergies but this time he threw up as well. I did not go over this with the babysitter and I should have. I assumed that she would not give him anything without asking me but I was wrong. This was just a learning lesson and I did talk to her today. I explained that Max has very bad food allergies and that she has to be really careful.

I was scared this morning watching him because he starting to throw up in his sleep. I heard him on the monitor trying to cough and then gurgle and I ran upstiars to find him covered in throw up. Then I cleaned him up and he was fallijng alseep so I put him down and it happened again but this time it sounded like he could not get the vomit up so I leaned him over and he threw up all over the floor. Then I was holding him and he dry gagged and then threw up all over me. Daphne Goldberg, our ped, told me that we must go to the ER if he continues.

But we did make a GI apt for him at CHOP, Childrens Hospital of Pennsylvania for July. All I can say is that apple does not fall far from the tree. I have such bad GI problems and food allergies which is why we eat so well.

He did not have a fever or seem sad..he just wanted to be held. Then he nursed and nursed and he kept is down and I was so happy. I just felt bad for him.

As for Max, I have not taken my eyes off of him all day. I even have him asleep next to me now because I want to make sure he is ok.

I will keep you posted.

Baby’s First Solids: Carrots

Rachel — Tue, 19 Jun 2007 13:04:58 +0000

This morning Max had a second round of carrots and this time he loved them. I am so excited to move and to start making his food from scratch. Although Dr. Daphne did say to give him food I make and food store bought so he gets used to all textures and tastes.

I really do like, Earth’s Best Organic Baby Food. I have tried all of the foods that I give Max and they are not too bad. I know fresh would taste better to me but we will see what Max likes.

Well packing is gong fine and the movers come Friday at 9 am.

As for the baby sitter update, Max is doing much better. He and Summer went to the playground yesterday and he went on a swing for the first time. Summer said he was laughing so hard. I am really glad that he is getting used to another person. At first I was sad because I want him to have those experiences with me but then I realized having a baby sitter is for me to work but also for Max to get socialized. I also know that nobody will ever take Momma’s place. LOL. I just need to say that. I am sure every mother knows what I am talking about.

All in all, it feels good to know that I have somebody who cares for Max and enjoys his personality. He is such a funny kid and he is so much fun to play with. I am lucky that it is only a maximum of 10 hours that I am away because if it was too much longer, I think I would melt or my heart would.

Also, thanks for the great feedback for driving and crying. It helps to bounce this stuff off other moms.
Enjoy your day!

Mama, I am sitting up!!

Rachel — Fri, 15 Jun 2007 22:57:21 +0000

Mama, I am sitting up!!Originally uploaded by Maxsmom

Second picture of the day. I could not resist.

Figured I would give an update. I have been working a lot in the past 2 weeks and next week I am working even more. I had the babysitter started on Wednesday. She just hung out with Max and I all day. On Thursday I left Max alone with Summer, the babysitter, for almost 3 hours. Then today I left them alone for 2 hours. He did not cry too much on Wednesday or Thursday but today he was not too happy.

Today he did not have a good nap. Both times Max fell asleep today, he woke up when I tried to take his car seat from the car.

But I also have to remind myself that all babies go through this at some point whether it is a grand parent, a babysitter or day care. Still, it kills me. I have been struggling with the balance of work and home. But bottom line and I realized this over the past few days. I am not really comfortable being away from him for longer than 6 to 8 hours a week. I have been so lucky that my boss lets me work from home and if it ever was beyond 6 to 8 hours, well then I would tell them it can not work.

I look at Max and melt. I know he is not going to stay little like this for much longer. I feel very lucky. I mentioned the other day that I am struggling with this move. I started to feel rushed, overwhelmed by work and home and I just started to feel distant from my life. I just could not slow down and then we went to Music Class today and I realized..this is why I need to slow down..so I can appreciate my life. When I go fast, I feel alone but when I slow down..well I see the world and I see all of the beauty.