Ever get totally stressed and then you go nutty in the kitchen?

I made 2 batches of home made protein bars for Scott. Ingredients were:

Oats
Millet Flour
Soy Flour
Brown Rice Syrup
Pumpkin
Carrots
Raisins
1 Egg (1 batch with and 1 without)
Cinnamon

Then I made a soup for me. Ingredients were:

Veggie Stock
Kombu, which is this
Azuki Beans
Lentils
Celery
Butternut Squash

It was so yummy.

I also had a good cry this am and my hubby is great..he just listened and did not offer an advice. He did say that it would take time and he is right.

I took a drive down to Essene Market, here , and bought a new Juicer and picked up our box of wheat grass. I also had some lunch. Then I went to see my best girlfriend and did some gabbing, which made everything feel ok again. Max slept on the way home and well, I felt normal. It is going to take time and I just can’t go and create it in 2 weeks, which is what I thought I could do. Yeah Superwoman Syndrome.

So I have been MIA because I am just feeling overwhelmed from the Move. I know we mde the right decision to move but it all feels like too much. I DO NOT DO CHANGE VERY WELL. I know it will take time to get used to my new surroundings but I just hate feeling this way. I hate feeling off. I know it will pass and I know I have tons of people around me to support me but my personality is that I do not like to depend on people..yeah this clearly does not work but it is who I am.

I have worked hard to reach out to people and I have gotten so much better but I still am an Aries Ram-strong willed and bull headed. I am hoping that the old me-the one who laughs and appreciates the good in life will come back soon.

We are all here and have unpacked most of the stuff. Max was an amazing mover. I think he liked watching the guys going up and down the stairs. He kept laughing and smiling. Then he blessed me with falling asleep as we were leaving the old house on the way to our new house and FYI, the movers were following me so it was extra special blessing..not that the movers wouldn’t have understood me bending over my kids car seat with my boob in his mouth..hehehe..TO ALL THE BREASTFEEIDNG MOMS, YOU KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT!!

It was wonderful to go to sleep in the quiet burbs. I never thought I would say that but it was nice and today..well, it was wonderful to take Max outside and just sit with the dogs. It was great.

As for Max, no blood and no vomit but we are still going to the GI doctor in July. I know it is food allergies but maybe they will tell me something I don’t know and maybe it is just good to get him checked out.

So I survived and I realized that the anticipation was killing me because the day we needed to move..all of my anxiety went away. Thank Goodness because I gained about 4 pounds during this move. UGH!

I will take some PICS and post tomorrow.

We are packed and ready to go. We move in the morning.

But my morning started with Max thowing up bile 3 times. He also had some blood in his stool. A day ago his babysitter gave him a state of water ice without knowing that he has serious corn allergies. He has had blood in his stool before due to food allergies but this time he threw up as well. I did not go over this with the babysitter and I should have. I assumed that she would not give him anything without asking me but I was wrong. This was just a learning lesson  and I did talk to her today. I explained that Max has very bad food allergies and that she has to be really careful.

I was scared this morning watching him because he starting to throw up in his sleep. I heard him on the monitor trying to cough and then gurgle and I ran upstiars to find him covered in throw up. Then I cleaned him up and he was fallijng alseep so I put him down and it happened again but this time it sounded like he could not get the vomit up so I leaned him over and he threw up all over the floor. Then I was holding him and he dry gagged and then  threw up all over me. Daphne Goldberg, our ped, told me that we must go to the ER if he continues.

But we did make a GI apt for him at CHOP, Childrens Hospital of Pennsylvania for July. All I can say is that apple does not fall far from the tree. I have such bad GI problems and food allergies which is why we eat so well.

He did not have a fever or seem sad..he just wanted to be held. Then he nursed and nursed and he kept is down and I was so happy. I just felt bad for him.

As for Max, I have not taken my eyes off of him all day. I even have him asleep next to me now because I want to make sure he is ok.

I will keep you posted.

This morning Max had a second round of carrots and this time he loved them. I am so excited to move and to start making his food from scratch. Although Dr. Daphne did say to give him food I make and food store bought so he gets used to all textures and tastes.

I really do like, Earth’s Best Organic Baby Food. I have tried all of the foods that I give Max and they are not too bad. I know fresh would taste better to me but we will see what Max likes.

Well packing is gong fine and the movers come Friday at 9 am.

As for the baby sitter update, Max is doing much better. He and Summer went to the playground yesterday and he went on a swing for the first time. Summer said he was laughing so hard. I am really glad that he is getting used to another person. At first I was sad because I want him to have those experiences with me but then I realized having a baby sitter is for me to work but also for Max to get socialized. I also know that nobody will ever take Momma’s place. LOL. I just need to say that. I am sure every mother knows what I am talking about.

All in all, it feels good to know that I have somebody who cares for Max and enjoys his personality. He is such a funny kid and he is so much fun to play with. I am lucky that it is only a maximum of 10 hours that I am away because if it was too much longer, I think I would melt or my heart would.

Also, thanks for the great feedback for driving and crying. It helps to bounce this stuff off other moms.
Enjoy your day!