Dearest Samantha,

From this picture above, I can tell you are 15 months going on 12 years old. I swear you are so grown up already and even though time sometimes feels like it stands still, it seems to fly by. You have become a little girl this month in so many ways. I know I say that every month but I feel like this one your little girl personality is shining.

You are so independent. It is hard to even go food shopping with you because you refuse to be carried or sit in the grocery cart. I guess I could be that Mom with a screaming kid but I swear your will and power would override any games that I could play to distract you and no a cookie would not work, since you do not love food and you are gluten/wheat and soy free so our options are limited. Basically you want to walk on your own until you feel that I should pick you up and you do the little gesture with your hand and say something that resembles up…but I think you just say..”PPPPP”.

You have started to dance and break dance like your brother does. You actually watched him do one his moves and then did it yourself. You had me in tears from laughing so hard. Check it out!!

You have had a tough month so far…you have been sick twice. It seems this is the month that everybody in our family always gets sick-this month and October and you have been sick with a cold and then a chest cold-it has been awful..many homeopathic remedies such as pulsatilla, chamomilla, and kali bich. It seems that chamomilla did the trick and also helped with the 3 teeth that are coming in-2 molars and another tooth on the bottom right. UGH.

Oh can I have your eye lashes because I love them and just love you.

We actually went out to play yesterday even though you and the rest of us were not feeling great but I knew that vitamin D would help and it was so nice until you ate the dirty snow and then we went inside. LOL. You have this part of you that like to gets in trouble and I can see that look where you just want us to say NO..like how you try and hang from the over handle these days..You have such an adventurous side to you. I love it and I see so much of myself. I am getting myself prepared.

You are still in love with Shrek and actually laugh at different parts of the movie. You also love Milo and Otis, a film about a cat and dog and their travels. You are really enjoying playing with the pretend kitchen and are great at enjoying your toys on your own but you also love to wreck your brothers toys and then watch him get upset. I have a feeling this will go on for a long time between the two of you. You are the light of my life. I am so lucky to have you as my little girl and to watch you grow and experience. I hope you never stop exploring and continue to challenge us. I love that you are strong willed and yet need to be cuddled and snuggled. Keep loving…you are so loved by me.

Love,

Your Mommy

Dearest Samantha,

So much to tell. You have turned into a little girl right before my eyes  this month. You babble, say words, walk with ease, carry your baby around and ask for your favorite movies. You can say the following words: Max, Ma Ma, Da Da Ba for bottle, Hi, Bye Bye, Re-for remote, ruff ruff, Do for Dog and more. I am sure there are others but those are the ones that I can make out currently.

You love to point at everything and you give this look..I know you are asking me WHY? I can see the future already..so many questions and so many answers. I have a feeling that you will always want to know the answer just like your momma.

You have been cutting two teeth this month-a molar on the bottom right and a tooth on the bottom right and I swear I feel a bump on the bottom left. OUCH. We actually had to give you motrin for a few days but things seemed to have calmed down since the tooth broke through. Poor baby. Teething stinks!

You are so sweet and so much fun. You love to play with blocks and you love to put things inside of other things. You enjoy playing with the little kitchen we have in the playroom. Every morning we go downstairs and you sit on this big bean bag and watch MILO and OTIS-a movie about a PUG and  CAT while I work out. You play and watch me and we sing songs..even though I can barely catch my breath as I am running.

You enjoy empty vitamin bottles, water bottles, and anything that is not a toy. You still love to sing and dance and enjoy yourself the most when music is playing. You are shy to a degree but the minute you warm up..you are chatty and dancing.

You were able to see two huge storms that totaled almost 40 inches here in Philadelphia and that is unheard of but you witnessed it and we had a lot of fun playing outside. You loved going down the hill with your Daddy, as I know you are such Daddy’s little girl. And by the way, he loves you so much too!

You still love to snuggle despite how independent you are and I love that. You have very curly hair, especially the day after we wash your hair and it reminds of the curls I had when I was your age.

Your favorite movie is SHREK. You have a little couch inf ront of the TV and you will sit there until your favorite scene and then you must go to the TV and watch close up..it can’t be good for your eyes but it is what you do and it is adorable.

You are doing great with your food and pooping..both subjects we talk about in this house a lot due to allergies. I think this protocol that we have had you on since November is working and we are addressing some issues that are finally getting your tummy in good order. You love squash, home made banana muffins, rice, apples, pears, carrots and kefir. I also give you a litle cultured veggies each week to help with your digestion and gut..we are just so happy that you are pooping daily. You are also on a homeopathic remedy called SULFUR, which is helping you to process the sulfur better in your little body-hoping that you will have less reactions wot foods with sulfur and almost every food has sulfur.

So things are good with you and you are just such a blessing in my life. I never knew how amazing it would be to have a girl. You have taught me so much about myself. I see my fire in you and I see that part of you that is a little volcano when you don’t get your way-kicking and screaming on the floor but then-I show you cups ands blocks and it is all over. You are a great kid and everybody that sees you just says you have so much personality and so much to say already.

Ever since you learned to walk, you are just so happy and you love to explore and hide and play games. You are playing great with your brother and you guys have a lot of fun together. We adore you. I guess there is not much more to say than that. Thank you for being my daughter.

Love you tons,

Mommmy

Just when I was asking myself daily..is this the right thing for my family-which is what I ask myself moment to moment..Max spoke in a 8 word sentence. 8 Words!! OMG! He said, ” I drink water to cool me belly off!” I was amazed. Tears almost fell from my eyes as I watched this little boy who spoke NO words in March, now speaking and communicating in an 8 word sentence. Lately, with the constant search to help my family with allergies, psoriasis, speech delays and GI trouble and my own fatigue issues since having the kids..it can be a lot. I don’t often talk about this stuff on this blog because I use this blog as more of a documentary to show the kids how hard we worked to raise them and how amazing they are day to day.

We found Amy Yasko because after diet changes and speech delays and allergies that could not be explained I knew it was more of an auto immune issue-which is basically what psoriasis (my hubby) and so we landed here-doing the Yasko protocol, which means that I am giving B12 shots every 3 days to myself, the hubby and Max..compounding a variety of supplements, dosing us with RNA’s (which are basically formulas which bypass our genetic mutations) and watching daily for detox..of and I forgot to mention doing a major gut protocol-killing the yeast and bacteria in our gut!

We just sent in urine and stool samples to re-test and see how we are doing with the supplements. I am hoping that the yeast and bacteria have lessened but those damn bugs are hard to get rid of. I guess it has just been a lot of stress on me. I have to realize that in the end we will all be fine but I also know that we will be fine because I am doing what I need to do for us to be healthy. I need to look at this as a journey and not an overnight quick magic bullet.

So it has been amazing to know that I am saving our family and learning so much about genetics. Who would have known that I would be able to speak to doctors about genetics, let alone nutrigenomics (using supplements to bypass genetic mutations).

My dearest Samantha,

First off, where has the time gone little girl? I feel like just yesterday you were a little baby and now your are such a little girl. Words cannot describe the love I have for you. I never in my life thought having a girl would be so special but it is. You are my wild child. You are a fire cracker. You have so much personality. I actually have to tell you not to hit, throw or smack. I have to constantly say be gentle and show you how to be gentle. I have to admit that there is a part of me that loves the fact that you are this feisty but there is also a part of me that knows I am in big trouble.

You LOVE to dance. If you hear any dance song or a song on the tv, you immediately start to move your booty and clap your hands. It is so cute. You even can mimic the people dancing on the tv and you try and sing along with them. To this day, if tears are flowing out of your eyes, and I start to sing “Wheels on the Bus” or “Twinkle Twinkle”, the tears stop and your start to smile and sing along.

You have taken your first steps this month and you get so excited that you can only make it about 4 or 5 steps but you are doing great. I think you prefer to crawl because you know you can get there faster but you want to walk so badly.

You can say Star, Dog, Mama, Dada, Max, up, more and Baba. You point a everything and I can already see in your eyes that you want to know what everything is so I tell you.

You love Blues Clues, Yo Gabba Gabba and Max and Ruby but you also will watch anything your brother is watching. Your favorite movie right now is “Milo and Otis”, a story about a PUG and  Cat. You love to point at the tv and say DOG.

You still love squash, yogurt, carrots and basically any vegetable that is sweet. You still do not adore food but you have tried my home made chicken soup and bison burger. You do enjoy the home made muffins that I make for your bother but still your love is your bottle.

You love to kiss and actually just last week at a play date, you kissed two boys. You are a flirt. You will flirt with any older boy and blow kisses. You are very sweet and adorable. Lately you have been wanting your Mama only and that makes me feel very special. You are an amazing little girl. You have a big heart and love to hug and love to snuggle. We are so lucky to have you as our little girl and to watch you grow. I look forward to many years of being your mom. I love you dearest sweet angel.

Love,

Momma

I cannot believe that 10 days have passed. So much is happening here. First off, I am doing school work and loving it so much. I am really enjoying following my passion in health. I feel lucky and fortunate but overwhelmed at times too. I am sure anyone would feel that way with school, life, kids, hubby etc.

We are in the thick of supplementing our household with the dr amy yasko protocol which is actually based on bypassing genetic mutations via supplementation also referred to as nutrigenomics. It is crazy. When I am not being a mom, wife or a student, I am researching for hours at night or in the morning. I am waking up each morning at 5 am just to have some time to research about gene mutations. Basically the body is run by a methylation cycle and if that cycle is not working properly then the body starts to have issues like allergies, speech, GI issues, fatigue issues etc. So it is amazing but overwhelming. I am compounding supplements weekly for the kids and putting out supplements for my husband and myself as well. We actually started doing B12 shots to get the cycle going and this morning was Max’s first shot. I have been doing them on and off for years, not even knowing that I needed B12 so desperately but now we are doing them every three days. I actually was changing Max’s diaper and then gave him a shot and told him that a bug bit his butt. I am not sure if I should have lied but I think holding him down and giving him a shot would be worse. I am also detoxing all of our guts and Max’s speech has already increased but I am also watching him detox pretty hard.

Max’s speech is amazing. The speech therapist think he has over 600 words and he is starting to use them in multiple sentences. It is amazing. I remember when he had his first session March 31st and did not even say one word at that time in his life. he has come so far and we are so proud of him. I know changing his diet had so much to do with it as well.

It has been a busy month already. We have had Chanukah, Sam’s b day party, Max’s b day party is tomorrow and well I think I will be happy when it is 2010. I love december because it is full of my kids b days but it is also tiring..I just think holidays are tiring in general.

As for samantha, she is on the protocol but no shots just supplements and she is doing much better with pooping. It is exciting to know that I am helping my kids and giving them a shot at having a better working body in the long run.

Samantha is standing up on her own and she is so proud. She is doing great. She is so funny and such a special little girl. I am sure all parents say that but she is just amazing. Sam is very chatty and loves to sing. She is just so sweet and loves to blow to kisses to pretty much anybody.

I promise to post more not only for the kiddos to read one day but for myself to have a place to let go..happy holidays!