I think I figured out why I am feeling so run down..my kid is teething and not sleeping. When Max is not feeling well, he my be up about 4 times a night and does not go into a deep sleep. I have been going to sleep later because he is waking up at 10 pm and by the time I get to sleep myself it is 11 pm and then he is up and then I am up. It has been hard and I guess I never think about the sleep thing because I have never had a good night of sleep since max was born but now that I am pregnant, well I am so damn tired.

Today was one of those days. I woke up and looked in  the mirror and there were bags under my eyes and my eyes were swollen. I woke up irritated and tired. I felt like there was nothing in my gas tank. I felt like I wanted to scream and cry at the same time. It is not just taking care of Max..it just feels like everything.I know this is not real…it is just because I am tired and not sleeping.

Max did not want to go down for a nap and I felt so irritated and felt like saying why me.

Then my hubby did not put away the soup in the crock pot from this am (which I had asked) and I wanted to say why me. **(even though I just forgot something yesterday for him and it was not big deal but Iin my head TODAY it was a big deal)

I need to pay some bills and I want to say why me.

I need to take back a pair of awesome shoes I bought and get a smaller size and I want to say why me.

See such privileged problems but still when I am tired and pregnant..well nothing matters. I am sure I will feel better tomorrow and hopefully Max will sleep tonight.

Well here is my little gardner. he was very helpful as long as he had a shovel, my shovel and his water bottle. I am still not sure how I managed to get all my veggies planted with being sick and taking care of a sick boy but I did. We planted cauliflower, collard greens, swiss chard, lettuce and tomatoes. I am so excited for the veggies to start growing. 

I do have to admit that it was tough to get into the groove with Max trying to pick up every gardening tool and playing with the dirt and trying to re-plant to plants. Luckily his Dad was eager to have the garden finished as well so they played while I worked in the fields. Lately the pregnancy hormones have been making me feel a tid on the bitchy side and so Scott has been stepping up to help more with Max.

Max is getting in his molars as well as being sick and so he is in no mood for anything. He is fussy and cranky and crying for no reason and this pregnant fussy and cranky mom just feels tired. He has the teething red butt and he is just not happy. I gave him a huge dose of Tylenol, chamomilla homeopathic remedy, a binky and put my little guy to bed. I feel like I need that too.

Tell me! Am I the only one that finds this pregnancy thing tough running after another kid? Where did my patience go? Will I ever get it back?

Just asking.

We had family over tonight for a birthday party for me. My mother in law and Scotts’ grandparents came over for dinner. It was a lot of fun and Max was so well behaved except for the toddler freak out during the witching hour-you know the one at about 4 pm..but anyway Max was great. We always hear from people, doctors and family that Max is really a special boy. He is so sweet and so smart and just so connected to people and of course, to us, his parents. I know I talk about his ears and allergies a lot and that he is not a good sleeper and that he still sleeps with us half the night but I also wonder how much it has helped him to feel confident and comfortable. I am by no means saying that kids who do not co sleep are not confident but I know that Max is sensitive and I wonder-for sensitive ids if the way to help them past the fears of being alone are to sleep with their momma and papa. We are the only culture who does not believe in this.But on the flip-I think he feels better sleeping on his own, now that he is getting older. I have decided to wait a month and then do some sleep methods with him. As soon as I feel comfortable about him not being in pain from his ears etc then I am comfortable with letting him learn how to self soothe. Hey-I am a first child and I am not comfortable with self soothing. It has taken me years to learn this concept so hopefully I can help Max learn a little earlier than in his 30’s as well.So we will get his homeopathic remedy tomorrow and a nutritionist is starting him on a few supplements to heal his stomach, which will in turn, help his allergies.All in all, no matter what any family does-it has to be right for the family. 

I think it is the molars. Max actually has had a black and blue mark on his upper right gum for about a week and a half. I am sure it is not making his ears feel any better. And of course, he got another ear infection. I think if I kept him in a bubble he would still get them. Luckily I love my chinese herbalist and I am convinced that if I did not have her-he would have been on 7 cycles of antibiotics.All in all he is going to get through this and maybe not sleep well but it will end, right? WHEN?We had a good time today. It was nice out and we went clothes shopping for Max, shoe shopping for Max and played outside all day. We also played outside after dinner and it made me realize how much I have missed those kind of evenings. I sipped my tea while watching Max run, yes he is running now. It was so cute and so awesome. I am just enjoying his personality so much..he is so stubborn just like me. He laughs when I say NO because he knows that he is just testing me but I explain to him that he cannot laugh at Mommy and the whole yada yada but he does. I am sure he is testing the boundaries. Hey, I still test them. LOL 

As I said yesterday, I have been using homeopathy with Max and it seems to be working.

This morning I gave him Aconite, Pulsatilla, and Camomilla. I do notice that the cold is not as severe as it has been in the past. I know his immune system was lowered by his 4th tooth on the top coming in..yes, you heard me..4th tooth. I am convinced that the Vitamin D in the Florida sun has helped my son to get a whole bunch of new teeth.

And yes, don’t hate me, but we are going back to Florida on the 20th. Scott has to go for business and the baby and I are tagging along. Well he was only going to go for two days but now we are staying for 7 days. YES, another 7 days in the sun for little old me. I am so super excited. Let me just say..that I am sending Cakerwakers, aka Christy, some beach love since she truly needs a vacation.

Well, I am hoping my son gets better and I am hoping a nice last week of work for me and then it is Mommy Time. Time for me to just relax in Reiki Class, hang out with some friends, my hubby and just be a good mom. Today, life is good..WHY?? Because I let go this morning. Well, just for today. LOL