So these days I am just so busy and it is all good. Being in school has been amazing but it means that during my day I am working and if I am not working, then I am with the kids. I do get one day where I can get some acupuncture, go food shopping alone and run errands. I swear just going to the grocery store alone is a treat. I love school. I am attending a distance learning program at the Institute for Integrative Nutrition and it is amazing. I am learning so much and will be so excited to be a health counselor. I am aiming to work with families and helping them to get as healthy as they can be. I would love to start with a woman during pregnancy and then help with nutrition with the kids. It is just amazing but I am finding less and less time to blog.

Max is doing great. He has probably about 500 words and he is getting more and more comfortable using his words. He loves school and we are watching Max grow up so fast. It is just amazing. He has a tough timer sometimes in the am and he says he wants to stay home but the minute we get to the school parking lot he starts running. It is so cute and then he does not even say good bye-he just grabs his ELMO bag and goes into class. He looks so grown up and I swear I dont even know where my little boy went to.

As for Miss Samantha, she is already singing. She does the shhhh from the wheels on the bus and she says MA for max. She is hysterical. She is so full of personality. She just tried to stand the other day and then miserable on her face. Poor little girl. She is cutting 4 teeth right now and not so happy but for her not so happy is another babies great day.

Both of them have birthdays in December. Sam tuns 1 on the 7th and Max turns 3 on the 20th. Sam’s b day we are having a small family thing and Max’s b day will be at a place called Bouncetown and they do an awesome party.

What an exciting month for my babies! And what an exciting year fort myself. I am realizing so much about myself and slowing down and just taking stuff as it comes. I feel like these babies have forced me to grow so much and I am so grateful.

So we arrived Monday. It was a little crazy getting here but we arrived. The house is so beautiful. I love it. The kitchen is white and the house is an open layout and we are just a walk to the bay or the beach.

Just in the past 2 days Sam has rolled over from her back to front and I swear is eating pizza late at night cause she looks huge. Max has a crew cut for the summer and not because I chose that. Max had his hair cut the other day and my sitter took him and he cried endlessly and so the cut was not so good so I thought the hubby should shave it since ALL boys know how to cut hair.WRONG!! not my hubby so he shaved a test run from front to back-GO FIGURE. I cursed, he yelled, I cursed, he cursed and I cried. I took Max, who was screaming bloody murder to the kid barber for an emergency shave. I had to hold him down in a wrestling move but he actually looks adorable.  Yeah he is that kid that screams with snot coming out of his nose and mouth. 

Regardless we made it but I did not lock the front door. yes you heard me. It was not locked because my mom had come over and I guess she just closed the door and I never checked it so our alarm went off last night because it just opened with the rains and the wind. I was amazed that the hubby was so sweet and understanding. He is generally very calm with that stuff but come on the front door. he just said that we all make mistakes and it was a crazy day. What a sweetie.

So Sam is not sleeping. I know she is teething really bad and will only sleep after a small dose of tylenol. She also will only sleep in her swing. UGH! She also does not like food at all. Could this all be teeth? I knew over the past 3 weeks that she was getting bad since she was sleeping half the night in her swing and if not, she screamed and screamed bloody murder. Daphne Goldberg, her doctor and I felt that it was more important to have her sleep that to force her to sleep in her crib but do they make swings that can hold a baby past 20 pounds. I know she is in pain and so I just dont have the heart to let her scream. I know she knows how to sleep and I know she is in discomfort. I tried giving her some homeopathy, Chamomilla 30c, and it seemed to work for a little but did not hold. I will probably call the homeopath today. Teething sucks. 

But the beach is awesome and as soon as I get the camera charged I will upload some pics. We will be here for 10 weeks and already I feel relaxed.I found a local moms group that is letting me join for the summer. I am so psyched.

So we changed Max’s diet to no wheat, gluten, dairy, corn, sugar, soy or yeast and he started saying some words. He says dada, ball, yes, lease for please, and blue. He also is making tons of  animal sounds. Amazing. Max has always been on a limited diet but he was eating sugar lately and the occasional bagel at the market, something at a play date and stuff on vacation but we really cut it all out and he started sating those words. His doctor felt that his brain would not be able to work if he was having allergies to these foods. People always ask what he eats and luckily Max loves rice cakes and dried fruit snacks. I guess he also sees me eat that stuff and so maybe it is easier since he has my exact food allergies but he is able to eat oats and I cannot. I also bake little muffins for him that he snacks on but all in all-we are good and friends have been great on play dates. I offer to bring the snacks-ones that Max can eat.

THE BIG BUT is that I don’t think that is all of it. My hubby and I both has learning stuff and we found our way in the world but it was hard at times so we thought it is best to keep going with the early intervention. So a teacher will come to the house weekly starting March 31st and a speech pathologist as well starting in April. I am excited to be taught how to better teach Max. He is such a happy kid and I think talking will make meal time easier for him. 

But since we took binky away during the day and  the TV is on less, he is loving his books. It is so cool to watch him grow. There is still a part of me that feels those 6 months when his ears were really bad before tubes just put him far behind but you never know and it really is not important. We just need to advocate for Max and we are.

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My dearest Max,

I am sorry that today I have no patience. I know you are teething. I know you are in pain. I know you are tired even though you slept for 11 hours. I know all of these things but still I let my impatience get the best of me. I know you are just a little guy that cannot express his needs clearly. As we were driving to class this morning at 9:30 am, you almost feel asleep and I had to open all the windows and shake your feet but still you wanted to close your eyes. I thought you would be fine at class but I should have realized you were not feeling good.

We had to leave class in the middle because you wanted to play with another kids hoola-hoop and not your own and you threw yourself down on the floor screaming. We left the room and you pointed to the door to leave. I put your shoes on and you were off to the elevator to push the button. I did not have my shoes on and the elevator came and you stepped in by yourself. When I got to the elevator I was so worried and scared that I yelled and grabbed your hand and said, ” No Max go alone in elevator. Only with Mommy.” I was still so angry with you. I was not gentle when I picked you up. I carried you to the car with your body straight in anger and frustration. We got in the car and I had to breathe. I had to regroup. I gave you a bottle and your binky and you still cried with snot pouring out of your nose. I wiped your nose and started driving. I called your Daddy and tears rolled down my face. I felt overwhelmed. I am not sure why. I felt sad and angry at the same time.

I should have known when you woke up this morning and were not your usual happy self. I am sorry for letting my grown up plan for our day get in the way of you just wanting to be at home watching TV and probably snuggling and drinking lots of bottles and sucking on your binky.

Even when your momma gets upset, I always love you and I will always say I AM SORRY when I am in the wrong.

Love,

Your Momma

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