So here is it. A picture of my little boy in the ER eating a lollipop. Max did not seem his usual happy self for a few days prior to this Sunday event. He seemed quiet but lately every Thursday he comes home with a new cold to share with the family from school. So I thought this was nothing out of the ordinary. He also went to the acupuncturist and got some new chinese herbs and had an allergic reaction to the corn in the liquid or so I thought and had a rash on his neck and he felt a little wam..which is nothing out of the ordinary after an allergic reaction, which he has often. So then he woke Sunday and he felt a little warm and we were off to a birthday party but he seemed fine just tired..Saturday we had a family birthday party-Scotts step grand father turned 99 and so I thought that the party made him tired and all the running around with his little cousin..or so I thought.

We left the party on Sunday early and came right home. Max did not look good. he feel asleep on the couch, which was not typical since he does not nap anymore and we took him temp. Now that am we took his temp with a thermometer and it said 102 and I took it again and it said 98. Ok. strange I thought. Well this time we took it and it said 103.5 under his arm. I got another one and it said the same. He has never had a temp this high ever! So I called the doc and she said to get him tested for H1N1 and so I scooped him up hot and crying and limp and took him the the minute lab at CVS where they told me to leave and go to the ER. We were welcomed by a nice lady who told me to put a mask on Max. he was not having this so I found a corner away from anyone else and held my hot and limp child in my arms. I did not have a thing. I did not even have a diaper bag. I thought we were going to CVS and going home. Sam was with Scott at home and thank god the Eagles were playing an away game because if not, he would have been at the game. Thank goodness. So they admitted us and Max screamed. We undressed him, gave him motrin, took his vitals, swabbed him for H1N1, which is not fun and waited. The nice doc came in and gave him 2 lollipops and you could see the fever going down because Max was started to act like himself.

It was scary. He did not have H1N1 or the flu but he had some virus and the rashes probably had to do with the virus. We went home after 2 hours there and got Max in a bath and put him to bed. I felt drained. The hubby did a great job with Sam although he was so nervous that he at an entire pizza and then threw up. Me, well I ate two bags of potato chips and called it a night. As for Max, he had a fever yesterday but he woke this am with no fever. YEAH! i have never seen him like that and it was scary. I am glad it is over but I am prepared because it is his first year at school and every week we have a new cold at out house.

Just hoping baby Sam does not get sick. Just hoping we do not have to go back to the ER soon. The scary part is that so many people are getting the  H1N1 shot and well we are considering getting the flu and the H1N1shots-even for Max who does not do well with shots. We will see. So much to think about when your child is allergic to egg and has a speech delay. So much to think about. My hubby was so proud of me. I just think it is being a Mom-there is some part of us that just shuts off and goes in to ‘I must take care of my baby mode”!

After a full week of venting, I thought it would be good to share some pics!

So here is another one of Max and his cars!

And here is another one of my little girl who is always striking a pose for the camera!

And there is the typical morning in my house!

And then there is a typical Sunday. Go Eagles!

So we are all doing much better. Sam is fine and it toughened her up. Max is loving school and I think he enjoys the constant schedule and attention he gets there. We went to the chinese herbalist and she gave him a formula for Qi stagnation, clearing the heat and calming the spirit. He started to eat again. Yeah! I think I will take the baby next week. I am also doing NAET with him, which is a technique used to help clear allergies and intolerances. We cleared Eggs and chicken the other day and we will go back next week for another treatment. I did this when he was young but hopefully it will take this time.

I am almost done with my cold. I hate being sick. Good news is that the pill is regulating me and the doctor thinks that in 3 months I will be back to normal (whatever that is). I have also been doing a liver cleanse and I it has been hard to give up my huge bowl of popcorn at night (it is so my comfort food). At this point, I cannot give up that one cup of organic coffee in the am. I know I should but I cannot so for now, this is the best I can do. Lets see if by this week I have the willingness t give up my soy milk in my coffee, which is so my comfort food too. I love creamy anything!

So we have been sick here again. I was warned that when Max went to school that he would be sick non-stop in the beginning. So Max was sick again Thursday and then Sam got sick and then I got sick. I beat each cold over the past few weeks but this one I did not. I gave myself Arsenicum for my cold and then Kali bur when the sickness got really bad. I think I am almost done but I still feel like it is in my head and giving me a little brain fog. I also started a liver cleanse the other day so I am not surprised that I got sick because my immune system is working hard to push out the toxins from my body. All this hormonal stuff, candida, allergies  and anxiety just kept pointing back to my liver being clogged. So we decided to clean out that liver and boy, has it been hard and I feel so tired but also energized.

I have just been losing my patience lately with Max. Max has been having a lot of allergy and intolerances. He has been having reactions to everything again. It has been really hard on me because I feel like I dont know what to do and then I get angry and i think I have been taking it out on him when he refuses to eat and only wants to drink his hypo-allergenic formula. I finally let go last night and that loving MOM came back. I cried the night before when I was yelling at him because he would not eat. He has been on a food strike for the past week and for some off reason I take it personally instead of just stepping back and getting perspective. I just collected a urine test from him this AM and will be shipping it off today so we can see how he filters toxins. I also made an allergist appointment for him and Wednesday he is seeing a chinese herbalist named Cara Frank. Hopefully she can clear some internal heat and help with the stagnation, candida and allergies. Just an ongoing process and it can sometimes be really hard but I just need to let go of it and keep moving forward to help Max.

So yesterday morning sucked! I was dropping Max off at school and rushing and I went to put Sam in the ergo carrier and she fell on the concrete. SHE FELL and his her head. I picked her up and held her so tight and went and got max and took him into school. She had stopped crying in 30 seconds but had a huge bump on her head. I gave her Arnica homeopathy and put on Arnica gel and watched her closely. I gave her Arnica later in the day again and she seemed to be fine. I was just rushing. I was rushing to get Max to school and rushing to get to Valley Green for a run with Samantha and she fell. I was crying in the parking lot after I dropped off Max. I know she is fine and I know we all have those moments where our babies get hurt because of something we do but it was still hard. I called the doctor and she told me what to do and what to look for over the next 24 hours. All is fine with Miss Samantha, thank GOD!

Ok. I am finally breathing. First off, I am back on the pill, Ortho-Novum 1/35 and feel better already. I swear my body just needs to be told what hormone is needed for what day. So we will see over a month-that is the true test but I swear a part of me that was lost came walking through the door. I just don’t feel so up and down, which does not really work with kids or a husband. Secondly, the kids are on the mend. Sam is almost fully done with her runny nose and Max has no cold but I am dealing with some type of allergy outbreak with him. It is so hard and try to be grateful because I think of kids that have far worse things than allergies but again, it is still hard. because the allergy attacked his little body so hard-he now has a bad case of candida. Hopefully it will resolve soon.

Sam is getting big. She is about 18 1/2 pounds and crawls very fast and is so funny. She sleeps in her crib and plays before sleep and she is just the best little girl. I love having her in my life. I am so lucky to have them. Max is enjoying school by Tuesday and Monday mornings are still hard so cross for fingers for today.

I started physical therapy for my knees and have been really enjoying it. I like being pushed by a trainer and I am learning tons of stuff and how to strengthen my weak body parts. I am going to run this week. I promised I would take 2 weeks off to let my knees rest after that 13.2 half marathon.

You know I think it is just tough being a mom. I think it is the most amazing job in the world but it full of up and downs and emotions. I have learned so much about myself being a mom. I feel like I have healed so many wounds with my own childhood and yet I know there is still so much more.

On another note, yesterday I had some family come over for the afternoon and my cousin was a little sick and her daughter was coughing. Do people not use their brain? They say things like, ” Oh I don’t want to kiss you because I may be sick?” Do people not think that it would not be a good idea to go where babies are when they are sick. So after they left, and I was so angry, I took antibacterial wipes and wiped the whole house. UGH. If my kids get sick again, dagger will be thrown. Am i over reacting?

Yes you heard me right. What a day. Max has been scratching his head for about 3 weeks and I kept thinking it was a dry scalp. I was putting conditioner and olive oil and scratching his head for him and he was still scratching. I was even looking at his head but his hair was so long that I did not see anything. Well they must have made a whole lot of babies in the past few days because there they were. Max was watching TV and I was trying to shake out what looked like dandruff but they would not go anywhere. And then I looked and there was a tiny scab and then I picked it off and it moved across my hand. OH DEAR GOD! I wanted to puke! I called the doctor and then I called the hubby and told him to get RID for LICE! ARF and UGH! 

So I knew this was not going to be easy. First off my son hates to get his hair washed because of his ears. Even though he had not had any ear infections since we got him tubes, he is still hates to have his ears touched. After his nap, it was D DAY! I tried to explain to my 26 month old that he has bugs in his hair that are making his itch. NO LUCK! Her screamed and I had to hold him down so he would not touch the medicine. IT WAS AWFUL> He screamed and kicked and cried. I felt like the worst mom but I knew it had to be done. Sam was crying too. Oh boy! And then finally I could rinse it and he screamed even more. Then I had to comb them out. The good thing is that he then watched me and then explained to me in his no talking way that he had bigs in his hair. At least he got what I was saying. So then I stripped everything and sprayed everything with that spray and washed everything. Our snowy day sucked!

But Max has not scratched at all. Who even knows where he got it because he plays with so many kids. I guess I need to keep a look out for kids scratching their heads. Poor Max! Poor Mommy. YUK lice! Are you itching yet?