So yes we are moving and it is to BOCA Raton, Florida. We were originally looking at Jupiter but the house fell through and I could not find a Montessori school that I loved and so Boca just kept pulling me closer but I have to admit and I can saying this being Jewish…that i always feared the Boca Jew but I have realized that no matter where you go-you find those people and I will find those people that I click with. We are in full force packing mode. I have been crying but a good cry and more because I saw a few friends that i will truly miss who have been in my life and are so important to me. One especially I will miss and I think she and I could be sisters in this life and then I have another one that we really could be sisters but she is not married nor a mom and so we just don’t share as much of that stuff..both I adore. I have spent the past few weeks going out to dinner with a friend and having a one on one dinner and it was so special-laughing and crying and talking about the wonderful trips we will have in the future together and all the 7 am talks we will have when we are both falling apart..

Boxes are packed and the packers come on the 24th and then pack the kitchen, art work, the TV’s and then they load the 25th and then we are out of here the 26th and close the 27th. We leave Philly the 28th for Florida and I am excited and sad. I am looking forward to a new life for my family but will miss what I know. I like knowing things and having the comfort of my surroundings but this experience is teaching me a whole lot about just trusting and I feel so close to my husband despite the many annoyances we have daily with moving questions but I think that is standard.

I do feel a little nutty and I am not sleeping much..i feel like I wake up with a slight heart attack and then I re-group and tell myself it will all be ok. I have picked out carpet, wall colors and we are re-doing the kitchen and different color and new appliances. I am getting a baby gate for the pool and well there are just lots of little things that need to be done.

I also am behind in school and have a test soon, which I am sure I will do fine but I am still feeling pulled in every different direction.

I am happy that we are finding a place that we can all be together and all be well…and I am hoping we have found the place and if not..well nothing is forever and this move has helped me to understand that..

So we took the house off the market and then a couple who had come to out one open house fell in love and I know why they did..because we did a lot of work to the house and is has beautiful Calico curtains and a sauna and a finished basement and tons of upgrades we did to the house because we thought we would be here forever. Well they made and offer and we accepted. We are finished with the inspection period and they have 3 days to put down hard money but they also have a mortgage contingency that end July 1 st. So it is not definite but I am 90% sure we are moving. We found this amazing DREAM house in Jupiter, Florida  that they are building right now-WOW new construction with my dream kitchen and an outdoor kitchen too ..oh and also a pool. It is in a community with a playground and shops and an elementary school right in the development. It is pretty cool. It is based on the concept of urbanism-work, play and live.

So the hubby and I fly down Monday and meet with the developer on Tuesday and walk through the house. I feel at this point i have cried all the tears, been angry, felt annoyed, been sad, been scared and now I have just let go and accepted that this is what is best for my family. I want my husband to feel well and up north his psoriasis is bad. He has been going to doctors to find out about embrel, but that is an immune suppressing  drug and that is scary to us because any cold or virus could essentially kill him. So moving is the answer and now that I am through all those feelings I am getting excited.

I am looking for a nanny to help me a little, searching for a school for Max and finding out about speech therapy in Florida. The move would be the end of August and we would be living down in Florida, hopefully chillin and building a new life for us. I know I will meet people but it is also hard to start new. I know it is a lot of mommy classes with Samantha and playgrounds with the kids and finding those moms to become friends with again. It is hard but I know I can do it and I have to do it for the sake of my family. I am happy is my family is happy and truthfully, I think this move will be amazing for all of us…a slower way of life and we are 4 miles from the beach. WOW.

So I will keep you posted..it is all good and I guess that is what I finally realized..we will be fine no matter where we are as long as we are healthy and together.

We were at a great spring festival last weekend. There was a petting zoo, slides, fire trucks and lots of games for the kids. We all went together, which was really a lot of fun. Max and Samantha both had a great time. Max is getting so much better at going into places with tons of people. I think he is just getting older and more confident. There were fire trucks and that made his day. It is so funny because Scott could not get Max to look at the camera but I am sure you get the idea. Of course the minute the camera was away he was having a ton of fun again.

I swear I look at this picture and wonder where my little boy is because he looks so grown up. I am amazed at how fast the time is going even though some days feels so long.

Now Miss Samantha was having a love affair with this rabbit. It was really cute because they had three sections the gate was low enough that she could reach the animals. There were chickens and two kinds of rabbits but this one was her favorite. It was so cute to watch. She was being so gentle too and I was really proud of her.

Max also enjoyed feeding the goats and sheep. It was so much fun. They had little bowls of food for $1.

We had a wonderful time despite the total mommy move on my part. First off, it was hotter than I thought and both my kids had long sleeve and pants on and then the stroller that I keep in my truck needed air in the tires. Those are both total mommy moves but at least nobody looked really hot and nobody would have known that it was hard to push the stroller with no air in the tires. I swear my brain can only hold so much information at one time.

As for the move, we have decided to delay the move either till december if a buyer is willing to wait that long or next summer. It just felt rushed and Max is not fully potty trained and so I was becoming insane. Bottom line:insane mother = insane family. So I let go and said this is when I can do it and we will see if it works but at least I let it go and are getting back to normal-slowly-FYI-I don’t do change well and admire people that can. Those type of people give me hope for myself. LOL

Such over due pics..my handsome boy driving his cousins car and then my little girl below…they are growing up so fast..what happened?

I know..you could eat her up..right?

And then there were more..

All is good here. We are in full force with getting the house ready to list. Max is just excited that he will have a pool to put boats in and well I am actually getting excited too.

It has been way too long. I am not sure where the days go. I have the same schedule each week and it just seems like I don’t have a second to spare. School is going great. I am learning so much and I know I will be an awesome health coach.

Max is doing great. he is loving school and says his best friend at school is a boy named Thomas. Thomas is a very sweet kid and it makes me so happy that Max feels like he has a buddy. The theme is this house is the movie CARS. It is everything. I wondered why so many people gave Max Car Movie stuff for his 3rd B day but now I know..it is because some magic LOVE CAR MOVIE thing happens at the age of 3 because it happened here. He has a Car theme Towel, pajamas, shirts, and of course most of the cars in the movie and Mack-the car transporter too. Yes we do spoil our kid but at least he is a sweetie and not a little bratty boy. Max is doing great with his speech and we are just so proud. he told me today I was silly because I thought it was Thursday. LOL. I swear I have such Mommy Brain.

As for Miss Samantha, she refuses to be carried unless she feels that it is the time to carry her. She is so independent and also is such a love muffin. Samantha is cutting 3 teeth-YES THREE and it is horrible and we have been giving her a lot of motrin. She cutting the upper left and bottom molars and another damn tooth on the right side. She actually rolled around on the floor crying for about 20 minutes chewing on her little sleeve crying. Poor little girl. She loves Shrek and you cannot pull her away from the TV when it is on. You can also say “shake your booty” and she shakes her little body and dances. She also does this dance move that Max does that we call Break Dancing-where she puts her head on the floor and puts one leg up. She watched max and then did it herself. I was cracking up.

Even in these times when she is feeling bad or Max, I have to say to myself..”It is OK. There is nothing I can do”. I have found that watching my little ones in pain causes me to get upset, sad at first and then angry and then frustrated because I can’t take the pain away so now I am just trying to let go in the moment of my little one just being in pain. We actually left music class this am early because she just did not want to be there. I think with Max I would have gotten upset and felt even a strange leaving early but not now. I picked her up and took her home because she had enough and felt good about it. It is cool to watch myself growing up as a mom and that feels good.

It has been a long winter and I am so excited for the spring. I just need sun. I just need to be outside playing with the kids or even soaking up some nice weather for myself. Despite the winter feeling so long, I am not sure where the time has gone. I promise to take some pics of my kids and post them because Max looks so big and Sam is just looking adorable as always.