It has been way too long. I am not sure where the days go. I have the same schedule each week and it just seems like I don’t have a second to spare. School is going great. I am learning so much and I know I will be an awesome health coach.

Max is doing great. he is loving school and says his best friend at school is a boy named Thomas. Thomas is a very sweet kid and it makes me so happy that Max feels like he has a buddy. The theme is this house is the movie CARS. It is everything. I wondered why so many people gave Max Car Movie stuff for his 3rd B day but now I know..it is because some magic LOVE CAR MOVIE thing happens at the age of 3 because it happened here. He has a Car theme Towel, pajamas, shirts, and of course most of the cars in the movie and Mack-the car transporter too. Yes we do spoil our kid but at least he is a sweetie and not a little bratty boy. Max is doing great with his speech and we are just so proud. he told me today I was silly because I thought it was Thursday. LOL. I swear I have such Mommy Brain.

As for Miss Samantha, she refuses to be carried unless she feels that it is the time to carry her. She is so independent and also is such a love muffin. Samantha is cutting 3 teeth-YES THREE and it is horrible and we have been giving her a lot of motrin. She cutting the upper left and bottom molars and another damn tooth on the right side. She actually rolled around on the floor crying for about 20 minutes chewing on her little sleeve crying. Poor little girl. She loves Shrek and you cannot pull her away from the TV when it is on. You can also say “shake your booty” and she shakes her little body and dances. She also does this dance move that Max does that we call Break Dancing-where she puts her head on the floor and puts one leg up. She watched max and then did it herself. I was cracking up.

Even in these times when she is feeling bad or Max, I have to say to myself..”It is OK. There is nothing I can do”. I have found that watching my little ones in pain causes me to get upset, sad at first and then angry and then frustrated because I can’t take the pain away so now I am just trying to let go in the moment of my little one just being in pain. We actually left music class this am early because she just did not want to be there. I think with Max I would have gotten upset and felt even a strange leaving early but not now. I picked her up and took her home because she had enough and felt good about it. It is cool to watch myself growing up as a mom and that feels good.

It has been a long winter and I am so excited for the spring. I just need sun. I just need to be outside playing with the kids or even soaking up some nice weather for myself. Despite the winter feeling so long, I am not sure where the time has gone. I promise to take some pics of my kids and post them because Max looks so big and Sam is just looking adorable as always.

It snowed a lot here and we had a great time playing in the snow! The kids loved it and it was so nice to just be outside enjoying the sun and the snow. We went to my parents house where they have a great hill to sled down. Max actually preferred to go down by himself and he did a great job. He was so brave and had no fear. He just went down. It was awesome!! Samantha was all bundled up and it made me think of that movie..THE CHRISTMAS STORY BECAUSE SHE LOOKED LIKE SHE COULD NOT EVEN MOVE BUT AT LEAST SHE WAS WARM AND HAPPY. So take a look at our amazing day! It is these kind of days that make life all worth living.

Saturday was cold. Saturday was one of those days when you know your child it tired but YOU, being the mommy, wants to get out of the house. I thought it would be fun to go to the Whole Foods that just opened down the street and get some pear sorbet and then go and get Max’s shoe size checked at the kids shoe store in the same shopping center. So it all started out to be ok. We were laughing and singing and having fun. We were walking down the aisles and I was thinking to myself how lucky I am to have such amazing kids. It was one of those la la moments that we tend to have…you know the ones that allow us to survive when it all goes bad. We picked up some bananas and a few other things for home and then we got pear sorbet and I got a kombucha tea and we sat and watched the pastry chefs making some yummy desserts we cannot eat and it was great.

We left Whole Foods and went next door to the kids shoe place so Max could get his shoe size checked and without any crying he got onto to that little scale looking type thing and it scanned his foot and we found out he did not need new shoes but that did not make Max happy. Sam at this time was crawling all over..walking and pulling shoes down and just playing and looking out the big glass window. Well Sam pooped and so I scooped them up and left the store because I thought-why bring the baby diaper bag-she won’t poop. MISTAKE! Make started to cry but we got to the truck and changed Sam’s diaper. Max was crying saying NEW SHOES! NEW Shoes! And so being the sweet mom that I am, we went back and asked for his size…THEY DID NOT HAVE THEM IN HIS SIZE! OH BOY! He started screaming and throwing himself on the floor. Sam watched with amazement and I think she was even shocked at what she was seeing..and I was mortified. At this point, the store was packed and I could see those looks..like why can;t she handle her kid and omg-her kid is freaking out…which is not very common for my little guy. I tried to pick up both kids and could not at first and Max would not walk. Finally I scooped them both up and headed for the car so angry. I put Max in the car and then yelled and then got home and yelled some more..then cried and then Max and I talked about what happened and saying sorry-which he refused to do and finally after and hour he said he was sorry to me. Saying sorry is something Max hates and we have decided that he should be able to do this now and are forcing him. It was horrible. He cried in his room..I came in every 5 mins to ask if he was ready and he said things like
I dont know how to
I dont have the words
I am tired
You hurt me
I had to enforce the boundaries and it was horrible but he said he was sorry and the day finally went on..I guess this whole talking thing is actually making things quite interesting..I am sure he will love that I have documented these kind of interactions between us. LOL

I learned a huge mommy lesson: If your kid looks exhausted, don’t leave the house!!

I asked Max who his favorite teacher is and he said, MOMMY!

I sat down this morning next to my son and he said, I LOVE YOU!!

My daughter loves to shake her head back and forth as if she is dancing when she is crawling somewhere with determination. It is so cute.

Sam loves to splash so hard in the bath that she actually is drinking bath water.

Sam loves the kiss the dog with an open mouth and is so gentle when she pets her. She also pats her baby’s butt with her hand at she holds her close to her chest..then she kisses her forehead. Makes me feel warm inside my heart because I know she is treating her baby like her momma treats her.

Max can say his own name but he calls himself, MAC! Cute name actually.

Samantha is so strong willed that she actually throws a mini baby tantrum if she does not get her way. Geez-having a strong little girl is already teaching me the lesson of discipline at am early age. BUT I love that she is so strong.

We had a break from winter and actually got on the swings during the weekend. Aw, the sun made us all so happy.

Life is good. My kids are awesome!!

So it seems Miss Samantha has started to walk-she can take about 5 steps and then she drops and then she stands up again and tries again. It is so cute. She also has this obsession with standing up while holding different objects. She loves to hold her bottle and drink while standing. She also loves to hold dumbbells and work out with me in the morning. It is so cute because Max did the very same thing. Samantha is so proud of herself. She is full of love and full of fire. It will be a ton of fun when she is fully walking because she will be unstoppable.

Max has been doing amazing. His speech is doubling by the day and he now can use 5 words in a sentence. His teachers are amazed and so are we. It is so funny the things that come out of his mouth. He is also starting to use the potty. We have been asking for a while but he had no interest and then last week he went pee 5 times and today he went pee at school on the potty. Such a big boy.

Max’s party was an absolute success. We had so much fun and even the dad’s were having a blast. We had it at this bounce place and the kids jumped and bounced and just had a great time. It was funny to watch because all the kids hit a wall at 45 minutes where they were sweating and just plain exhausted. They were all ready for some food and yummy allergy free, egg free cup cakes.

I am glad the month of December is over and I am hoping for a great year. A year where I can learn to  let go a little more and enjoy the grace in my life. I have an amazing family, a new career path, and a good life. I am thinking 2010 will be wonderful.

Do your kids ever look at the camera? HAHA