We went to the Devon Horse show and had a lot of fun since both my kids love horses. We had taken Max last year and now Samantha went and she kept waving to the horses. It was so cute. Also have to say that My phil and ted’s stroller is amazing for days like this because I am able to push both kids if max gets tired. It makes life such much easier. There were rides and lots of shopping and lots of yummy food including the 2 scoops of mint chocolate chip ice cream I ate. YUM!

Anyway, here are some pics. Max had his first lemon stick-well 2 to be exact and Sam ate pizza. At the end of the day, both kids were happy. Max ended the day with a huge poop all over himself because I tried to bring out the travel potty and he told me I needed a bag and I went to turn and get one and bam..poop everywhere all over everything..himself, his shoes, the grass..it was gross and a great learning lesson..BRING THE DAMN BAG FOR THE TRAVLE POTTY OR MAKE HIM WEAR A DIAPER. LOL

So we took the house off the market and then a couple who had come to out one open house fell in love and I know why they did..because we did a lot of work to the house and is has beautiful Calico curtains and a sauna and a finished basement and tons of upgrades we did to the house because we thought we would be here forever. Well they made and offer and we accepted. We are finished with the inspection period and they have 3 days to put down hard money but they also have a mortgage contingency that end July 1 st. So it is not definite but I am 90% sure we are moving. We found this amazing DREAM house in Jupiter, Florida  that they are building right now-WOW new construction with my dream kitchen and an outdoor kitchen too ..oh and also a pool. It is in a community with a playground and shops and an elementary school right in the development. It is pretty cool. It is based on the concept of urbanism-work, play and live.

So the hubby and I fly down Monday and meet with the developer on Tuesday and walk through the house. I feel at this point i have cried all the tears, been angry, felt annoyed, been sad, been scared and now I have just let go and accepted that this is what is best for my family. I want my husband to feel well and up north his psoriasis is bad. He has been going to doctors to find out about embrel, but that is an immune suppressing  drug and that is scary to us because any cold or virus could essentially kill him. So moving is the answer and now that I am through all those feelings I am getting excited.

I am looking for a nanny to help me a little, searching for a school for Max and finding out about speech therapy in Florida. The move would be the end of August and we would be living down in Florida, hopefully chillin and building a new life for us. I know I will meet people but it is also hard to start new. I know it is a lot of mommy classes with Samantha and playgrounds with the kids and finding those moms to become friends with again. It is hard but I know I can do it and I have to do it for the sake of my family. I am happy is my family is happy and truthfully, I think this move will be amazing for all of us…a slower way of life and we are 4 miles from the beach. WOW.

So I will keep you posted..it is all good and I guess that is what I finally realized..we will be fine no matter where we are as long as we are healthy and together.

Dearest Max,

You are a rock star. I have decided that even though you love to be guided by following the rules, you just love life. You live hard and play hard and LOVE hard. You have always been a  great big brother but now you want to help. You like to bathe samantha, put her to sleep, carry her and most of all make sure she is not getting hurt. You are the same way at school. Your teacher Miss Brenda says you protect the kids and they listen to you. You are such a great little man. You just want everybody to be happy. I swear you are always looking to find ways to laugh and it is a valuable lesson that you are teaching me.

School has been great for you. Miss belkin says that you are doing amazing with your speech. She said you have gone way beyond any of your goals and we are so proud of you. You are observing and using your words in all situations. You ask Why, Where, Who, What..you went from not speaking one word in March of 2009n to non-stop talking and I love when you say..”Is that a good idea?” It cracks me up because when you have an idea you always make sure it is the solution. You remind me so much of myself.

I also have to say you are very cool and very liked. You have two best friends at school, Thomas and Bruno, but you also hang with a few more boys that want to be in your crowd. You are in the phase of “LET ME PICK IT, LET ME CHOSE MY CLOTHES, LET ME..LET ME..LET ME”. It is awesome to see you taking care of yourself. You can put on your clothes, your shoes, brush your teeth and use the potty. You still do not using the potty at school but I am sure we will get there eventually. I am not worried. You whole life you have done things when you are ready and not a second before. You even picked out your shoes on the New Balance website. Yes, you will only wear New Balance..I had you in these shoes as your first pair of shoes and you refuse to wear anything else. But this year you wanted to pick them out and then press all the buttons on the computer to go to the check out and you did. Such a big boy.

You LOVE the Car Movie. You get a car movie car (under$4) every time you poop. I know we may be spoiling you but it has been the only thing we can give you. I tried candy-even gluten free and it was messing up your stomach and then I tried gluten free and dairy free chocolate and it messed up your stomach so we give cars. I wish it were easier like M & M’s but the Cars are fine and you are at least motivated. So you have a lot of cars and well you are going  potty a lot too and that is good. Since we are moving probably at the end of August, we need to get you potty trained because most schools do not let 3 years in the class unless they are potty trained..but like I said..all in your time..

I know you are my kid and all moms think their kid is handsome but you are SO handsome. You are just a very cute kid. Everybody loves you..your teachers, your grandparents and us. You have a spark for life that cannot be put out. You are loving books these days and we read books every night before bed.

You are going through that whiny 3 year old phase and throwing down your toys when you don’t get your way and I am hoping this is just a phase. i have actually had to tell you to go in a time out because not getting our way does not mean you can throw your toys. I probably need to put myself in a time out and take a mommy breath at those moments. I am sure being this ago is tough so I am trying to be loving and supportive. I love you and hope I support you in all the ways you need me too. You are a great kid and you are just growing up so fast.

Love, Mommy

Dearest Samantha,

It is a few days late and to be honest, I feel like life is moving so fast and I looked at my watch and realized that it was three days past your 17 month B day. So forgive me but here we go. I have been saying that you are 17 months going on 30 and I mean it. Everything is “I must do it myself”. You also always have a plan and a destination. It cracks me up how much you already express what you want. You have multiple words. You say up, dog, cat, sit, ba ba, wa wa, mama, dada, Ma-for max, car, poop, pee, nana for banana, more, apple, yummy, yes, no and I am sure there are more. You are so good at hearing words and then saying them. Last night you said moo, deer, hat, truck and well the list goes on. You will also have full conversation and I actually understand even though I don’t understand one word but it is a mother’s instinct.

You have a fire inside of you that is so persistent. You are such a little peanut but let me tell you one thing my little child-people see you coming from a mile away and your eyes-they say that you look through people when you look at them. I have a feeling that you will always see the truth in life. You have no fears at least so far-you are the kid at the playground that goes down the slide head first, you climb the railing of the stairs at home but you hate to be tied down. You refuse to sit and eat-you prefer the floor and I have tried and sometimes you sit but only on a big chair and then I have to hold you. You just don’t want to be a baby and you never did. You also want to do everything your brother does and you actually do.

You have started to eat some foods but you still love your bottle and I am not one to take it away from you-I have never believed that there is some magic age where the bottle should be taken away. But you do eat pasta, marinara sauce, rice, banana chips, strawberries, egg, beef, chicken, veggies, cheese, fruits and yogurt. You are not a big eater but I miss a lot of veggies in with your yogurt and you seem to love that. i also sneak spirulina in your morning bottle and you don’t seem to mind that at all either. You just like to eat on your own and feed yourself and you have been that way from birth so I am not surprised. You know what you like and what you don’t..well you don’t eat it.

You love to wrestle with your brother. Each night you both roll around on the floor and even kung fu fight since that is what your brother loves to do and you laugh and laugh. You love splashing him in the bath but then you kiss him when you see he gets upset. You enjoy hitting him but then patting him with love. You just enjoy playing and laughing. You enjoy books and when you are done hearing them you like to stand on them and say, “Book” and dance. You are just so funny. I don’t know how to explain it but you are. You are also a wanderer. You will just go off and not even look back. I guess it makes me feel good that you are so confident but at 17 months-can you give me another few years to get used to this? LOL

You are just a plain joy and I love you so much. I am so honored to be your momma. As much as your are independent, you are the first one who wants to be held, hugged and kissed. I love you so much!

Love, your momma-always and forever..don’t ever stop looking for the stars because I know you are looking. I love you sweet little girl. You make me so proud already!

We were at a great spring festival last weekend. There was a petting zoo, slides, fire trucks and lots of games for the kids. We all went together, which was really a lot of fun. Max and Samantha both had a great time. Max is getting so much better at going into places with tons of people. I think he is just getting older and more confident. There were fire trucks and that made his day. It is so funny because Scott could not get Max to look at the camera but I am sure you get the idea. Of course the minute the camera was away he was having a ton of fun again.

I swear I look at this picture and wonder where my little boy is because he looks so grown up. I am amazed at how fast the time is going even though some days feels so long.

Now Miss Samantha was having a love affair with this rabbit. It was really cute because they had three sections the gate was low enough that she could reach the animals. There were chickens and two kinds of rabbits but this one was her favorite. It was so cute to watch. She was being so gentle too and I was really proud of her.

Max also enjoyed feeding the goats and sheep. It was so much fun. They had little bowls of food for $1.

We had a wonderful time despite the total mommy move on my part. First off, it was hotter than I thought and both my kids had long sleeve and pants on and then the stroller that I keep in my truck needed air in the tires. Those are both total mommy moves but at least nobody looked really hot and nobody would have known that it was hard to push the stroller with no air in the tires. I swear my brain can only hold so much information at one time.

As for the move, we have decided to delay the move either till december if a buyer is willing to wait that long or next summer. It just felt rushed and Max is not fully potty trained and so I was becoming insane. Bottom line:insane mother = insane family. So I let go and said this is when I can do it and we will see if it works but at least I let it go and are getting back to normal-slowly-FYI-I don’t do change well and admire people that can. Those type of people give me hope for myself. LOL