So we went to  a party the other day and I got the kids dressed up in costume. Sam, the lady bug, looked adorable and everybody thought she was too cute for words, which she is

Then my little astronaut took off!

Then Sam looked a little dazed..must have been all the candy and cookies being passed around..

Then Max pinned the tail on the black cat!

So the kiddos had a ton of fun. max was a little shy until he ate two dum dum lollipops. I always have such a tough time at these parties with Max’s allergies. I know he should not have anything processed but sometimes it is just so hard. I feel like he eats 95% perfect for his allergies and then we have these days and I just can’t say NO. I should just bring my own candy and he would be so happy. It is just hard and lately I have been feeling overwhelmed by all of our allergies so this day did not help but he had so much fun eating the candy and enjoyed himself.

Sam is just such a little outgoing girl. She knows blows kisses, flirts with any boy and actually gives him the blue eyed look and then flashes her lashes. It is so funny to watch. She is growing up so fast. She loves to sing along with me when I sing WHEELS ON THE BUS AND TWINKLE TWINKLE. She actually moves her hands around and then says SH for what the momma says on the bus. She is such a little smarty.

I swear this season is flying by for me. I just cannot get myself to blog daily with my own school and well just life. I just dont feel like it at the end of the night but I am trying. I love blogging and I miss it when a few days have gone by..

Max,

I cannot believe another months has passed so quickly. I am 3 days late on your official birthday latter because on the day of your 34 month b day we were in the ER with a 104 temp. It was not fun but  a dose of motrin and 3 lollipops later, you were doing ok. It was scary and I am glad you are better. It was just some virus but just in case we got you tested for H1N1, which is some crazy flu that is going around (I will explain in the years to come).

So what has happened this month? You are loving pre-school and you don’t even say good bye to me anymore. As we get to the second floor, where your class is located, you start to walk fast and then we get your classroom door and you grab your ELMO book bag and take off. I am so proud of you. Your teachers say that you are starting to use your words in class, which means your feel comfortable. As for your words, I have about 175 words that you say and you add more daily. Yesterday you told me to move out after you were dont your burger and when we were about to leave you said, Rock and Roll! You cracked me up. I had to call your dad and your MEME (MIL).

Yesterday I took you to get your second blood test ever and even though you cried, I was so proud of you. We went to Chestnut Hill hospital and you sat on Moms lap and I held you down and they got the blood. Then, as promised, we went to Borders and got 2 new stickers books.

Yes, stickers books are your favorites! You love trucks, trains, cars, Dinosaurs,  and anything boy. You enjoy some books but prefer to do things like stickers, anything with an action. You also enjoy imagination play like cooking in your kitchen and pulling your sister on a car in the basement. It is very cute-we tied two cars together so you can pull her around.

You are still so sweet with your sister. You guys are like an old married couple, always fighting and then hugging. You help me put her to sleep every night, you pat her back when she is sad and you wrestle and roll with her when she is happy. You always want her near you. You are very proud of her and protective.

I knew the day you were born how much I loved you but I did not know that my love for you would grown daily. We will sleep together and I have come to realize that is just what you need and I made a promise to you when you were born that I would listen to your needs and still create solid parent boundaries but this is one place that I really listen. You need me to be next to you at night and that is ok. I am here for you. You also still love your bottle and that is ok too because I am sure you will let go of it when you want. It is comfort blanket. I am listening to you! I love you sweetie.

You are a lover at heart! And where did you get those eye lashes? I am so jealous!!

Love,

Mommy

So here is it. A picture of my little boy in the ER eating a lollipop. Max did not seem his usual happy self for a few days prior to this Sunday event. He seemed quiet but lately every Thursday he comes home with a new cold to share with the family from school. So I thought this was nothing out of the ordinary. He also went to the acupuncturist and got some new chinese herbs and had an allergic reaction to the corn in the liquid or so I thought and had a rash on his neck and he felt a little wam..which is nothing out of the ordinary after an allergic reaction, which he has often. So then he woke Sunday and he felt a little warm and we were off to a birthday party but he seemed fine just tired..Saturday we had a family birthday party-Scotts step grand father turned 99 and so I thought that the party made him tired and all the running around with his little cousin..or so I thought.

We left the party on Sunday early and came right home. Max did not look good. he feel asleep on the couch, which was not typical since he does not nap anymore and we took him temp. Now that am we took his temp with a thermometer and it said 102 and I took it again and it said 98. Ok. strange I thought. Well this time we took it and it said 103.5 under his arm. I got another one and it said the same. He has never had a temp this high ever! So I called the doc and she said to get him tested for H1N1 and so I scooped him up hot and crying and limp and took him the the minute lab at CVS where they told me to leave and go to the ER. We were welcomed by a nice lady who told me to put a mask on Max. he was not having this so I found a corner away from anyone else and held my hot and limp child in my arms. I did not have a thing. I did not even have a diaper bag. I thought we were going to CVS and going home. Sam was with Scott at home and thank god the Eagles were playing an away game because if not, he would have been at the game. Thank goodness. So they admitted us and Max screamed. We undressed him, gave him motrin, took his vitals, swabbed him for H1N1, which is not fun and waited. The nice doc came in and gave him 2 lollipops and you could see the fever going down because Max was started to act like himself.

It was scary. He did not have H1N1 or the flu but he had some virus and the rashes probably had to do with the virus. We went home after 2 hours there and got Max in a bath and put him to bed. I felt drained. The hubby did a great job with Sam although he was so nervous that he at an entire pizza and then threw up. Me, well I ate two bags of potato chips and called it a night. As for Max, he had a fever yesterday but he woke this am with no fever. YEAH! i have never seen him like that and it was scary. I am glad it is over but I am prepared because it is his first year at school and every week we have a new cold at out house.

Just hoping baby Sam does not get sick. Just hoping we do not have to go back to the ER soon. The scary part is that so many people are getting the  H1N1 shot and well we are considering getting the flu and the H1N1shots-even for Max who does not do well with shots. We will see. So much to think about when your child is allergic to egg and has a speech delay. So much to think about. My hubby was so proud of me. I just think it is being a Mom-there is some part of us that just shuts off and goes in to ‘I must take care of my baby mode”!

After a full week of venting, I thought it would be good to share some pics!

So here is another one of Max and his cars!

And here is another one of my little girl who is always striking a pose for the camera!

And there is the typical morning in my house!

And then there is a typical Sunday. Go Eagles!

So we are all doing much better. Sam is fine and it toughened her up. Max is loving school and I think he enjoys the constant schedule and attention he gets there. We went to the chinese herbalist and she gave him a formula for Qi stagnation, clearing the heat and calming the spirit. He started to eat again. Yeah! I think I will take the baby next week. I am also doing NAET with him, which is a technique used to help clear allergies and intolerances. We cleared Eggs and chicken the other day and we will go back next week for another treatment. I did this when he was young but hopefully it will take this time.

I am almost done with my cold. I hate being sick. Good news is that the pill is regulating me and the doctor thinks that in 3 months I will be back to normal (whatever that is). I have also been doing a liver cleanse and I it has been hard to give up my huge bowl of popcorn at night (it is so my comfort food). At this point, I cannot give up that one cup of organic coffee in the am. I know I should but I cannot so for now, this is the best I can do. Lets see if by this week I have the willingness t give up my soy milk in my coffee, which is so my comfort food too. I love creamy anything!

So we have been sick here again. I was warned that when Max went to school that he would be sick non-stop in the beginning. So Max was sick again Thursday and then Sam got sick and then I got sick. I beat each cold over the past few weeks but this one I did not. I gave myself Arsenicum for my cold and then Kali bur when the sickness got really bad. I think I am almost done but I still feel like it is in my head and giving me a little brain fog. I also started a liver cleanse the other day so I am not surprised that I got sick because my immune system is working hard to push out the toxins from my body. All this hormonal stuff, candida, allergies  and anxiety just kept pointing back to my liver being clogged. So we decided to clean out that liver and boy, has it been hard and I feel so tired but also energized.

I have just been losing my patience lately with Max. Max has been having a lot of allergy and intolerances. He has been having reactions to everything again. It has been really hard on me because I feel like I dont know what to do and then I get angry and i think I have been taking it out on him when he refuses to eat and only wants to drink his hypo-allergenic formula. I finally let go last night and that loving MOM came back. I cried the night before when I was yelling at him because he would not eat. He has been on a food strike for the past week and for some off reason I take it personally instead of just stepping back and getting perspective. I just collected a urine test from him this AM and will be shipping it off today so we can see how he filters toxins. I also made an allergist appointment for him and Wednesday he is seeing a chinese herbalist named Cara Frank. Hopefully she can clear some internal heat and help with the stagnation, candida and allergies. Just an ongoing process and it can sometimes be really hard but I just need to let go of it and keep moving forward to help Max.

So yesterday morning sucked! I was dropping Max off at school and rushing and I went to put Sam in the ergo carrier and she fell on the concrete. SHE FELL and his her head. I picked her up and held her so tight and went and got max and took him into school. She had stopped crying in 30 seconds but had a huge bump on her head. I gave her Arnica homeopathy and put on Arnica gel and watched her closely. I gave her Arnica later in the day again and she seemed to be fine. I was just rushing. I was rushing to get Max to school and rushing to get to Valley Green for a run with Samantha and she fell. I was crying in the parking lot after I dropped off Max. I know she is fine and I know we all have those moments where our babies get hurt because of something we do but it was still hard. I called the doctor and she told me what to do and what to look for over the next 24 hours. All is fine with Miss Samantha, thank GOD!