We took a 7 day vacation to Orlando Florida and the hubby forgot the computer. Thank goodness it was not my mistake. LOL

The flight down was great and the flight back was not so bad but Sam’s ears were hurting her and for a little she was not that happy. So I put her in the Baby Bjorn and she loved that. My friend just gave me one and Sam adores it. I have so many other slings but never used that one and it was a life saver on the trip. I do have to say that traveling is not easy with young ones because you just never know what to expect. But we upgraded for a little extra that day and it made all the difference to be in business class.

Max adored Sea World but did not love Disney World. I am not sure if the crowds or the waiting in line got to him or the fact that I chose the wrong park-he only watches PBS and not anything else so he really does not know the characters. I think he would have loved animal kingdom but I won’t go back till they are older. I do not know how people do that for 7 days with real little ones because I was so damn tired after a day. Now Sea World was a blast and all of the shows were amazing. 

We hung out at the pool, ordered tons of room service, and ate like pigs. We celebrated our 3rd anniversary on the 25th and my birthday on the 28th. Scot and I went out for our anniversary for the first time ALONE since Sam was born and it was amazing. Scott sent roses to the room that am and that eve I had the restaurant make us desserts according to our diet needs and had them write I LOVE YOU SCOTT on his plate. It was so sweet and hey, I also got him drunk. What fun!!

We had a blast and now we are home trying to get back into schedule. I miss having my bed made, calling for food and waited on hand and foot but it is good to be back.

Here are some pictures from the trip. 

this is at sea world

and this is us bathing sam…

max eating chips in the room

just the two of us laughing

enjoying some shade..

Sitting on a metal turtle at Sea World

And Shamu-the whale..

All in all it was great to get away-be with the kids and enjoy my husband. Now we are back to reality.

Dearest Max, 

Another month has gone by and it always feel like so much has happened.

We had the speech evaluators come and see if we need to have them come and help you. They said that you are very smart but that you may need a little help to learn how to use your words and mommy and daddy need a lesson on how to help you. Since then, we have also changed your diet and since the n you can say: Blue, Dada, car, duck, please, ball and you ,make a lot of animal sounds. Some of the words do not sound very clear but it is obvious what you are saying. I guess we need to keep you a dairy, wheat, gluten, soy, sugar and yeast free diet. Thank goodness you are only 2 years old because I would not have a fighting chance if you were 6 years old and going to school.

You have  had a tough time sharing when kids come to play at our house but you are learning. You have a few very good friends: Tyler, a tough little girl down the street. Luca-a very vibrant and spirited boy  and Eli-a fun and very vocal guy. It is a lot of fun watching you interact and find your way when I know you are feeling shy. I am so proud of you when I know you are shy but you are willing to step u and challenge yourself.

You are very protective of your sister and your sister loves you so much. She watches you play and watches you do everything. She loves when you wash her at bath time because she thinks you are the best person in the world.

Lately, you have wanted me to hold you like a baby and cuddle you. I realized that you still need your mommy to baby you even when you are grown up. I will always be there for you to cuddle and hug and kiss.

You also started to whistle but you don’t whistle, you put your finger in your mouth and blow. I am not sure where you learned this but it is adorable.

You are amazing in your gymnastics class and of course favored by your teacher. You are always the teachers favorite.

I love you and you are such an amazing little boy. We may be doing a lot of time outs these days since you are a toddler and challenging us here constantly but you are amazing and I love you so much.

Love, your momma

So we changed Max’s diet to no wheat, gluten, dairy, corn, sugar, soy or yeast and he started saying some words. He says dada, ball, yes, lease for please, and blue. He also is making tons of  animal sounds. Amazing. Max has always been on a limited diet but he was eating sugar lately and the occasional bagel at the market, something at a play date and stuff on vacation but we really cut it all out and he started sating those words. His doctor felt that his brain would not be able to work if he was having allergies to these foods. People always ask what he eats and luckily Max loves rice cakes and dried fruit snacks. I guess he also sees me eat that stuff and so maybe it is easier since he has my exact food allergies but he is able to eat oats and I cannot. I also bake little muffins for him that he snacks on but all in all-we are good and friends have been great on play dates. I offer to bring the snacks-ones that Max can eat.

THE BIG BUT is that I don’t think that is all of it. My hubby and I both has learning stuff and we found our way in the world but it was hard at times so we thought it is best to keep going with the early intervention. So a teacher will come to the house weekly starting March 31st and a speech pathologist as well starting in April. I am excited to be taught how to better teach Max. He is such a happy kid and I think talking will make meal time easier for him. 

But since we took binky away during the day and  the TV is on less, he is loving his books. It is so cool to watch him grow. There is still a part of me that feels those 6 months when his ears were really bad before tubes just put him far behind but you never know and it really is not important. We just need to advocate for Max and we are.

My hubby and our son

Mommy and her little girl

Max and his Daddy again..

Big girl Samantha sitting in her brother’s chair.

I felt that it was a good idea to post some adorable pics. Also on a good note I think we have no more lice. YEAH!

Yes, what the fuck! I guess when it rains it pours. Yes 3 out of 20 people have it but come on now. I guess no more can happen now. First the lice, then the speech and food issues and now this on my chest. I got the phone call yesterday that I have this on my chest. last week I went and had them remove a skin tag that did not look good and the woman called me yesterday, who did not have good bed side manner and I had no idea what she was saying but I heard cancer so I ran down to the hubby (who was running at the time on the running machine and said, ” I HAVE CANCER-THE GOOD KIND> WHATEVER THAT MEANS”. Hubby was quite confused and then informed the hysterical me that a lot of people have it but again, come on.

Between some hormones that are wacky and the doctors cannot figure it out, this and my serotonin and dopamine levels who are not doing there job, well I have melted down. 

But what I also know is that I have lost this part of me that just can BE since Samantha was born. I LOVE my kids but I feel like every minute I am planning the next minute. I am having a tough time staying in the now. Because right now Samantha and I are up and she is talking and being adorable and we are enjoying each other or I could feel like we are up at this early time and start worrying about the day, Max, me, hubby, Samantha, taxes etc. You get it.

I know this will pass-this feeling of not being able to BE and enjoy. It has really taken a toll on my hubby and I need to start including him on what is happening with me. I tend to hold on tight and try and keep it together but clearly that does not work.

All in all, I am going to try and stay in the now even though life with two can be tough-I am blessed. I am blessed sand I need to start saying this to myself instead of sitting in the crap.

I am always so happy for this blog because I really feel like this is a place where I can let go and just BE!