Max and I went to my friends house for a play group-the one who thought her baby was not OK..well it turns out the doctors made a mistake. A MISTAKE!! OMG-wow that would be pissed me off. Thank goodness everything is fine with the adorable little girl and her Momma was in quite good spirits.

Also while at her house this am, we were talking about pregnancy weight gain. My friend only gained 20 pounds. Damn her. Damn that lucky girl. Did I mention that I have gained 20 so far? I could have killed her. I left feeling a tad depressed but then realized that my body is doing what it needs to do. Then I talked to my other friend and she reminded me that few women gain that little weight. Then I felt better.

Max now loves to beep my belly button-still it is already sticking out. Yeah, did I mention that? 

Max loves to shower and in the past few days I have felt like I needed to step in the shower again at night as well so we shower together. Max loves to stand behind me and I had this great moment where I remembered being a little girl in the shower with my Mom and putting my hands out to catch the water that would come off her elbows-well Max was doing the same thing tonight. It made me want to cry with happiness and love.

Max woke up in the transition from car to stroller for his nap and so he napped only 20 minutes today but he was such a joy and happy and no tantrums. I am so damn lucky and he passed out at 8 pm.

I have to pack for Max and myself and go grocery shopping for the shore tomorrow. I am so excited to go away with my family. My hubby has been working non-stop this week and so it will be nice to go away. He only has to leave one day for a meeting. Yeah fun family fun. But I will miss you guys and I am sure I will have tons of pictures when we get home the following Saturday.

Max went to the doctors yesterday and he is 27.8 pounds and 33 3/4 inches. He is growing up so fast. Since Max is not talking yet, I decided t hold off on shot until he is. I am not concerned about Autism but it is something I think about. I know it is more prevalent in boys.

As for his talking, I think his ear infections really halted his babble period and so here we are at 20 months with only 4 shots ever given to him so another few months won’t mean anything. But Max also plays with 4 boys who are not talking either and they are older than him. I know he will talk when he feels like it. Max is like that with stuff-he does it when he feels like it.

And since Max is not going to preschool anytime soon-well then I figure we have time. I have never be fond of how shots are given to kids-so many at one time and when their little immune systems have not grown up yet but for some kids-it is fine and for others-well not so fine. I just think Max is a sensitive guy all around-allergies, ear infections until the procedure and his emotions. It feels good to be an advocate for my kid. Like I said, every kid is different and so this is just what we have decided.

Max is finally back to himself. I think it must be hard adjusting to life back home. In New York we were constantly on the go-even more than at home- no wonder I was tired. But he is back in his routine just in time to leave for the beach-Long Beach Island, New Jersey. It will be nice to end the summer this way.

Well have a good night.

Dear Max:

You are growing up so fast. I feel like everyday you become a new person. You just love life. You love to dance and play and laugh. Most of all you love talking on your phone, like your Daddy. I love that you love your Daddy so much. He is a great Dad to you and a great model. 

I count my blessing daily with you because you are such a sweet little boy. People kept saying that you would eventually hit or push but you have not so far. if you get hit, you look at the other kid and then at me and then hold your head. You do not understand why they hit you. But you don’t hit back. 

I still sleep with you half of the night. I go into your room once you wake up and then we fall asleep till the morning. Before you go to sleep, you rub my head, play with my hair and rub my back. These are all of the things I have done to you since you were born. You are so sweet. You love my new belly. You love to kiss and hug and wave hello to baby Samantha. You also love to push my belly and I keep telling you to watch out because she will be able to push back one day.

This month you are babbling away. You are really learning to use your voice and of course to continue to use signs for everything. You are so good at it that I am convinced this is why you do not get frustrated trying to express yourself.

We have been to two of your friends 2 year old birthday parties this month and still we have more on our calendar. You are so loved by your friends and their mothers. You are so loved by everybody.

We too a trip to the beach last month and you are truly our child-you LOVE the beach and the sun. You napped in your stroller on the beach, you snacked at the beach, played in the water and ate water ice for dessert. You are our child without a doubt in my mind. 

Truly max, you are a sweetie and I am so damn lucky to have you as my son and my first born. You have allowed me to make mistakes and learn and to be a better mother each day. We are taking a trip together tomorrow to New York City to visit your Aunt Julia and I am so excited to travel with you because you enjoy life. You have taught me to let go. You have taught me so much about the small things in life. You are such a gift daily. I love you.

Love, 

Your Momma

 
So here I am with a pregnant 23 week baby in my belly. I am feeling great and still working out. I have not been running because I found I had to pee so much that it was not enjoyable. I also found out I have an anterior placenta, which means this. It also means that I am showing bigger than I should be and it also means that it took me a while to feel this little girl kick. My midwife says that either position does not make a difference for the baby but I do notice that I can’t eat too much. I am getting full so fast and so I have to be careful about how much I eat. The other night I was so damn hungry and I kept eating and I was so sick all night with indigestion. Ugh I hate that stuff; the acid reflux kills me and Tums can only do the trick for a little.

I had a friend have a baby last week and they had some complications. It made me scared and sad for her. I cannot imagine having new baby hormones raging and dealing with issues with my baby. When Max was born, the doctors said he had fluid in his chest. I remember them taking him one morning and I was all alone and I could not even pick up the phone to call Scott. I jumped up and cleaned my room and took some deep breaths and I could feel my heart shaking. But then they brought my Maxie back and he was fine. It was such a relief. I feel horrible for my friend. But for all I know-they will find out everything is OK. In am so blessed that Max is healthy and I am sure whatever will be will be for this little one in my belly.