Dear Max:

Wow! It has been such a huge month for you. I know I have said that on other months but this month has really been about your self esteem and your personality. You have stepped out from behind the door and you are saying: THIS IS ME WORLD! I feel like you are such a big boy now. 

For 19 months you have been quiet around strangers or not comfortable in situations but now it is different. At music and lIttle Gym, you are one of the first kids to go up to the teacher and participate. You are so proud of yourself and you make this smirk because you are so happy and shy at the same time. You are such a humble little man. 

You are still such a sweet and sensitive guy. No matter how much you get hit or your hair pulled, you do not push or pull back. You just look at the kid like they are crazy and then you look at me. I think Esther the Super Pug has helped you to learn how to treat people and animals.

This month you are also putting your face in the water in the tub and you kick your legs as well. You love the water and we swim at the toddler pool as well as your little friends Tyler’s pool down the street.

You now laugh at everything. You watch TV and movies and laugh at the funny parts. You also laugh at yourself quite often or if Daddy does something funny. I see your personality come through more and more. You are a very special kid.

Still your hat is your favorite clothing. You refuse to go out in the sun  without it and now you own about 4 hats but your favorite hat in the Philadelphia Zoo hat. You also enjoy wearing sun glasses. It must be your sensitive green eyes. You are adorable and I could just eat you up daily..oh but wait I do.

You are the love of my life and you always will be. I am so honored to be your mother and I am so lucky because you are such an angel. I will always think of that first night alone with you and how you slept in my arms in the hospital. It was love at first sight. Thanks Maxie!!

Today we had our full anatomy scan and all was well and yes, it is a girl. I had a feeling it was a girl and we are so excited. I think Max will be an amazing big brother and I am so happy to have one of each. I feel so lucky.

This little one will be named Samantha Jane-or at least that is what we have decided as of today. We will probably call her Sam.

I was very nervous about the scan and Scott asked me why I did not say anything to him but my hubby, as great as he is at listening, would have just tried to solve the problem and say something like…WHY WOULD YOU BE NERVOUS? EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE FINE. Then I would have been pissed off so I just did not say anything to him but I was nervous. I just wanted to find out that everything was good so far and it was. We are very fortunate.

I am excited to decorate a room with pink and buy adorable outfits but I have to admit that I know how to raise a boy and so there is a part of me that is scared. But I also feel that no matter what-I would not really parent any differently. I am very sweet with max but also rough and I do not think I would be much different. That is just who I am.

Anyway, we are off to the beach for a week tomorrow am and I have decided not to bring my laptop. We are going to really step back from the computer for this week. I am so excited. So I will chat with you guys when we get back.