I am easily forgetting this time around that I am pregnant. I was actually jumping on a bouncey with my son and I am not sure what got into my head but I plopped down on my butt-ya know like you do on a trampoline and bam-it actually occurred to me that I am pregnant. Go figure. I did not bleed and I did not have any pain. I called both my doctor and the midwife to discuss my screw up and both said not to worry. They both said I am only 15 weeks along and if anything would have happened-meaning bleeding-it would have happened in the past 24 hours. But still-come on! I think it is just so easy to get caught up in playing with Max that I forget, I never forgot with Max. It was my first pregnancy and I was so careful. I am still careful but not like when I was pregnant with Max.
I also have not read one thing online about pregnancy. I read one book as a reference written by a woman who is a herbalist and a midwife but of course I am forgetting it because I have prego brain. I guess I did scare myself. I have a doctors appointment on Wednesday and I just want to hear that heart beat. I am sure everything is okay but I just want to hear it.
As for my food-I am so damn hungry again. I think I just need to give into and let myself not be so freaked out about the weight. I just hated having to lose all the weight but I did lose it minus 4 pounds. So I guess give myself a damn break.
Also this time I am not loving being pregnant like I was with Max. I of course love that I am making a life but I am just tired. With Max, I could relax and enjoy the pregnancy but now-I am running after Max, which I am so thankful for but still tired.
I guess it will be a long next few months but guess what-we booked a week down the beach in July and one in September. Yeah!! A vacation for our family. A guess life is good after all. Damn Pregnant bitchy woman. LOL
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