I know I mentioned in the meme a few weeks ago that my Dad is MIA, well i guess I know where he lives but I have not talked to him in a very long time. So around father’s day I kind of have a break down. I think I am not angry with my Dad as much as I am sad. I have worked for years on this and finally I can say the anger is not there but still father’s day makes me angry and sad. I do have a step father who for the majority of my life is more like a step child. He is sweet and means well but it is just who he is- like a kid..needs all of the attention. He has been better in the past 3 years but he is still the same.
I want to be able to look at father’s day as a day for my hubby but it still reminds me of what I don’t have. I have been so upset that I am just angry at everything. I also recognize that this is a common emotion during pregnancy for me but I hate feeling that way. I like to be happy and content instead of feeling like I have a bad life. My mind can be a crazy place to visit.
On top of it all..Max is sick again. AGAIN!!! Well not only is he sick but he is teething which means that I have not slept in two days and I am so damn tired of this humidity. I begged the hubby this am to move to California. He said it is too far but today I just want to jump on a plane and get out of here. Anyone wanna join me? It is raining now-I can only pray that the humidity lifts a little and gives me a little break. Carrying myself, the bump and Max is tough in this heat. Oh poor me! thank god you guys don’t mind if I complain. I think it is one of the few places that I can just let loose.
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