After talking about it here and talking to some friends, my acupuncturist and my mother in law, who told me that I need to tell her son exactly how I feel because he needs rules, lol..I talked to him. Ironically, my mother in law had called me and mentioned to me that Scott has not been very connected. Keep in mind that I have never talked to any of my family members about my hubby (I learned by mentioning things a few times and it just never worked out) but when she said it with such love well the flood gates opened. We talked for a while and a lot about her first husband, my hubby’s dad and how he was rarely there. She told me to speak up because Scott was the kind of man that would listen.
I spoke up but in a very specific and loving way. He listened and he agreed. I am sure we will continue this talk for out whole lives and bottom line is that I need to keep opening my mouth. I learned as a young child to stuff but it does not work and my acupuncturist is so sick of working on my liver, the place where anger comes from, that she said I must do it for me. She also told me that Scott and I have something real special and that if I don’t speak up eventually it will be too far gone to turn back. She also reminded me that we are her son’s God Parents and that if they were to pass, we would bring up Gabriel. I started to cry. I forgot how special my relationship is with Scott when we have an open channel of communication. But I need to open my mouth. I need to stop the insanity of stuffing that has plagued my family for generations.
So bottom line is that I went out to see Sex and the City with a girlfriend last night. Scott has plans too. The sitter would watch Max. Scott’s plans feel through and he told me to tell the sitter to go home. He would talk care of Max himself. Usually he would have found something to do. It made my heart melt. Even if I need to talk about this weekly-well it is worth it because I came home and he told me about his game he played with Max in the bath tub with the wash cloth. It made me cry inside my heart.
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