Well I spoke to my husband last night in a very positive way, more than I did a week ago. I am not sure if I mentioned in my post that I spoke to my husband about the issues I had mentioned but I was so emotional and so irritated that I don not think it was productive, even though we ended up having a great weekend and the discussion ended in a hug. But last night it was calm and clear. i expressed my feelings without thinking..just letting them roll off regardless of the outcome. I guess I realized that Scott may never change but I need to. I witnessed growing up with my own mother-who was an amazing mom-but you could always tell that she was holding back her true feelings when it came to my dad and later my step-dad, I learned to stuff and to make sense of why things were messed up. I know I do not want to be that mom for me and I also don’t want Max and the next one to learn how to stuff. So I am talking regardless of the outcome.
I am starting to feel like the first trimester fog has lifted. I actually took Max to the pool and we ran around the house playing hide and go seek. We had an awesome day. I think I am also learning about my kids sleep schedules. When he naps one hour only he may go to sleep around 7:30 to 7:45. At one hour and 30 minutes it is 8 pm and finally at 2 hours it is 8:30 pm. Finally after 17 months I am starting to get it. I have also learned that Max can transfer from the car to his bed if he has only been asleep less than 10 minutes..if not just stay in the damn car and read a magazine.
As for our sleeping arrangements, I have begun to get Max used to his room and that means I am going in to his room and not bringing him into bed with us–OH I MEAN I am falling asleep in his bed as I am helping him to get back to sleep. Actually this is working out quite well since I do not hear Esther’s pug breath/snort/cough. Yes I love my pug dearly but during pregnancy I am such a light sleeper that even her snorts keep me up. Also the hubby is a late night TV watcher and so..I and we, meaning Max and myself are sleeping great and sleeping till 7 am. WOW! Regardless, I am hoping I can keep myself awake to get back to bed but for now-at least he knows that our bed is not the place but know he knows his bed is and momma is there too. Baby steps is what I have to say. And honestly, I love having him next to me. But it will be nice sharing a bed with the hubby in about 5 years.
Max and i went to the pool today. They have an amazing large in length and 1 foot in height baby pool. Max adored it and I think we will be there almost everyday after nap. I loved it too. They have a playground, snack bar, and a few pools. It is not a country club but they have a swim team and all that good stuff. It is right around the corner and we joined a few months ago. Anyway, Max fell down 3 times and got water in his ears and I leaned him over to the side-just like you do when you are older-and I shook and pushed on his ears to get the water out-but no ear pulling or ear digging. I am so damn amazed. I am so careful with his ears that I only wash his hair once a week. Luckily, he takes after me because his scalp never smells. hey women with curly hair can’t wash their hair more than once a week or it will all die.
Well I guess that is enough for tonight. I know I was supposed to do my tagged post but I had to write about our great Sunday and all the updates.
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