I know I thought we had come to a decision and I should have not spoken so soon yesterday but last night was it. After writing that post yesterday I started to look at Max’s sleep and realized that he is getting up at 10 pm and coming into our room. I also know that I am now sleeping the opposite way of Max and my husband and the dog just so I can have some room. I also know that Max has been getting up to have a midnight bottle. I was thinking that when baby #2 is born, that Max and his dad would end up in our bed and I would be in another room with the baby. But when Max gets up he wants me and only me. Last night he got up at 12 am and I was so tired and so upset. I had a tough time falling asleep and I had just fallen asleep when he woke and pointed into the air (which means he wants his bottle). Maybe he thinks God makes his bottles and not me. ??) Anyway, so the hubby said to me something like this…babe, why don’t you get him his bottle and I said…babe. we have created this and I said..I can;t do this and he said..what do you want to do? and I said..I am not sure. I woke up frustrated and upset because I was torn. After talking to a few friends today I feel that I am doing Max and myself a favor by helping him to learn how to self soothe. We are putting the crib back together and showing his the crib tomorrow and then using the crib saturday. I am sad but I also feel like we are making the right decision for all of us. I think it may be different if baby #2 was not on the way but either way-I want my baby to learn to sleep and I want to sleep. Please send us good sleep mojo and hope that Max gets the hang of it real fast.
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