WOW!! A Huge thanks to one of my favorite blogger friends, named Christy. She is a mom to 2 babies under 2 and lives in New Jersey. We have been blog buddies I think for about a year. Last year I was one of the first people to respond to one of her blog giveaways and here it is: a scarf made with love. We have never met and next week we are going to her little girls birthday party. I am so excited to finally meet her. besides she has never posted a picture of herself so I am not even sure what she looks like but I know the faces of those babies anywhere. So this is a huge thanks from the bottom of our hearts to you-my friend Christy.

As for my post yesterday-thanks for all of the comments-i guess I am not alone at all. The grass always looks greener on the other side. Thank god for blogging. Thank god for all of you guys. Thanks so much.

First off, let me say that I know I need to post about that amazing scarf-the one that was given to Max by one of my blog buddies and I also was tagged but I need to talk about this.

Let me also say that I love my husband, he is my best friend and a great dad but he pisses me off. Scott works from home but probably spends less quality time with Max than a out of the house dad. I guess I thought Scott would be very hands on-meaning that he would want to bathe, feed, play, read or put Max to bed sometimes but he just is on that dad. I also have to say that for the first 6 months of Max’s life, before we got a babysitter-he was the one who watched Max when I went to work 1 to 2 days a week. I guess it just makes me resentful and sad at the same time. I resent the fact that he is never the one who says, “Hey lets all go and do this this weekend”. When he is with Max, he is awesome with him and he is such a connected and fun dad in so many ways but he is not that dad who wants to be there for everything. I just wish there were more of those wonderful times. GGGRRRRR,

I also know that last time I was pregnant, I felt alone too. However, there is a part of me that feels like maybe I am just being more honest with myself since I am so hormonal. Or maybe nobody’s family life is like the way I think and I should stop being upset and just accept who I am with. I love my husband and actually this is really one of the few things that makes me upset in our relationship. Maybe it is just hard seeing him at home but not really seeing him. Maybe I just want him to ask once about coming to the playground or taking Max to the park or anything. I am not sure but I do know that the thought of a husband at this time kind of makes me nauseous. Damn pregnant bitchy woman!

another 11 week belly

Here are the firsts of many belly shots to come. Scott was not around to take the picture so I took it in the mirror. I will take a other picture this Friday for my 12 week belly shot. I saw my midwife today, Ronni Rothman, who is one of the funniest jewish women I know. Anyway, we heard a heart beat and all was well. It was good to know that I am feeling crappy for a reason. No matter what-I still get nervous the day before the doctors apt because I just want to hear that heart beat. I almost stopped breathing when she had a tough time at first but she said it is tougher when it is early-still I knew that in my head but my heart was shaking. My blood pressure was low as usual : 100 over 60 and it will only get lower as time goers on. But on the bright side-I will not have preclampsia, which is a condition due to high blood pressure.

I have gained about 5 pounds even though the stupid scale at the doctors claimed but much more but hey-I just ate right before. I hate those doctors scales. All I know is that I am going by my scale at home and not paying any attention to her scale.

So I guess that is all. have a good night!

Well here is my little gardner. he was very helpful as long as he had a shovel, my shovel and his water bottle. I am still not sure how I managed to get all my veggies planted with being sick and taking care of a sick boy but I did. We planted cauliflower, collard greens, swiss chard, lettuce and tomatoes. I am so excited for the veggies to start growing. 

I do have to admit that it was tough to get into the groove with Max trying to pick up every gardening tool and playing with the dirt and trying to re-plant to plants. Luckily his Dad was eager to have the garden finished as well so they played while I worked in the fields. Lately the pregnancy hormones have been making me feel a tid on the bitchy side and so Scott has been stepping up to help more with Max.

Max is getting in his molars as well as being sick and so he is in no mood for anything. He is fussy and cranky and crying for no reason and this pregnant fussy and cranky mom just feels tired. He has the teething red butt and he is just not happy. I gave him a huge dose of Tylenol, chamomilla homeopathic remedy, a binky and put my little guy to bed. I feel like I need that too.

Tell me! Am I the only one that finds this pregnancy thing tough running after another kid? Where did my patience go? Will I ever get it back?

Just asking.

We had a great time today even though Max still had a cough, snot pouring from his nose and a little attitude because he was sick. Max rode in his wagon in the Pennington New Jersey parade with my husbands best friends kids. It was a lot of fun. I too am still not feeling too great but we managed to work through it. I have had no energy to even post in the last few days with being sick, chasing after a toddler (who is also sick), and being pregnant. I did manage to plant my garden yesterday, and I am not sure where I got the energy to do it but time was running out. I will post pics of the garden this week. I also have to start posting pregnant belly pics. I also need to post about an amazing gift that one of my blog friends sent Max. I will keep it a secret as to who sent it until I post but a HUGE thank you to that mom of 2 in New Jersey.

I hope everybody had a great time and ate tons of BBQ and feel stuffed.