Just as an FYI! Last night my son woke up at 9:30 pm crying and rubbing his mouth with his chub hands. I laid him down in our bed and left him there with my hubby. He woke immediately and started crying. My hubby tried to console him but it did not work. I came over and consoled him and he went to sleep. I left the room again and he cried. I came back in and took my little baby/little boy in my arms and cuddled him and he went right to sleep. I guess he still needs his momma. I guess at the end of the day, no matter what, we all just want our moms. So my heart filled up and my heart also learned a lesson and that is-my child will always come back to his momma but he needs to go out in the world and test the waters. Thanks Max for always teaching me more about myself.

I always knew the day would come when it was not all about me-the MOM anymore. Of course rejection is not totally what I feel but I do feel kind of sad and happy at the same time. I am sad that my little boy is growing up and that I am not the only one that he craves when he is sad. I am happy because I see that my little boy is finally trusting other people. It used to be that Max ran to me if I entered the room but now it is Daddy. As I said, I am so grateful that my son has an awesome Dad, who he wants to be with at every moment. And why not-he knows that his Dad is like him. I guess it got me really upset when I came home and he was with his sitter and he would not come to me. He actually got upset when I tried to hold him. I know a few things. One of them is that I am tired and just not myself right now due to being pregnant. I also know that his sitter is his buddy and she is non-stop play. I also know she has energy because she does not have kids and I should be grateful that my kid adores her so much. But like I said, where did those times go when it was just me and Max? I guess this is why I hear parents cry when their kids go off to pre-school..because you just realize that your kid is growing up. I guess I never knew what it would feel like to share Max. Of course the hubby looked at me like I was nuts when I said this but hey he may not have those feelings. I am not sure if it is just a MOM thing but it still makes me sad and happy.