Damn me. I am so tired. Max has been having a rough few weeks with his sleep habits. I have always talked about co-sleeping and why we do it-we do it to survive. Of course, it is wonderful to snuggle my little one and feel his warm breath and feel his hands wave in the air until he finds my face and then he knows he is with me, his momma. But lately, the co-sleeping is not even helping. Max falls asleep in his own bed and wake around 11 pm to 12 am and I bring him into our bed. BUT he has been waking up and coming into our bed and then waking up again and then staying up. I am so damn tired and pissed off. I can have patience one night but when it happens two nights, which means I get about 4 to 5 hours of sleep, well then we have a problem. Imagine this: A bitchy and tired pregnant woman!! Yes, beware. I also have the next day guilt because I was so pissed at Max last night for being up and I was trying to put him to sleep over and over frustrated. I could not even keep my own eyes open. I am also scared that I will not be able to handle the tears while trying sleep methods. Last time, Max threw up on himself 3 times and cried for 4 hours. I am sired, frustrated and fearful that things will not change. On the upside, Max’s ear surgery for tubes got moved up a week, so I am hoping things will get a little better after the surgery. So now the surgery is April 24th. Keep your prayers coming for my little guy who needs to go under and his nervous mom that needs to let go and trust that he will be ok. Any sleep tips would be appreciated.
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