So I thought long and hard about this..I mean telling thew blog world about it but my philosophy is that if anything does happen then you guys would be one of the first people that I would work it out emotionally with. This blog has helped me to be honest with myself about so many things and in turn let go and move on. So I figured what would be the point of not blogging about it since if something did happen..this would be the first place I would want to talk about it. The other reason is that I started this blog so that one day I could show Max was I felt like when he was just 7 weeks inside of me. I also figured down the line I would put all the posts in a book or something like that..so why deny this next one this book or posts or a journal of my experiences etc?I am only 4 weeks along but already feeling so tired. I am already feeling the heartburn, the heartburn that plagued me when I was pregnant with Max. I knew something was up last week when I put on my jacket and my boobs did not fit anymore. I also knew something was up when I could smell everything. I also knew something was up when I could feel s hooting pain up my left side and pain in my ribs. These were all things that happened to me with Max as well. Funny things is that I was convinced that I was not pregnant. I am sure a part of me wanted to protect myself in case I was not. Anyway, I am also starving already. OH BOY. I lost all the weight and now I get to get fat and do it all over again.But all in all, we are so very excited. We told family and close friends and now you guys.  I am sure I will post my fears in the next week but for now, it is all excitement. 

Toddler TantrumsOriginally uploaded by MaxsmomI am sure we all know this face. Does your child drop to the floor, throw his or head back and then, twist and turn and then throw his or her arms over his or her head and cry? See this picture of Max. Max has a really bad ear infection and I can only give him ear drops, since the hospital required that he be off of any supplements for a month, and so he is suffering and I am suffering. he is napping less due to pain. Stabbing his ears. Waking up in the middle of the night for a few hours. Waking up early in the morning around 4 am. The result is more tantrums. The poor kid is so tired and get not rest. The poor mom is tired and cannot rest. I know I talk about this all of the time but it is true. It is hard not to get frustrated in the middle of the night as I am walking down stairs to get a bottle because he is pointing his finger in the air and in our world-this means bottle. He just wants to be loved but when I am that tired..the love is there but the frustration sometimes out weighs the feelings. I am sure I am normal. But it is still hard to have those feelings when my little guy just wants to feel ok. it is tough being sleep deprived. Why can’t I have a tantrum like this daily as well?