Tonight I watched Max crawl over to his toy chest, pull himself up, He then realiuzed that he wanted to touch his toy horse and so he reached for it but realized it was too far. Then he started to move his feet a little but I could tell he was trying to figure out how to get o to that horse. He reached and reached and finally he grabbed the horse because he had managed to get closer by moving his body. This whole experience lasted for about 10 minutes. It was amazing to watch his mind working so hard.

As for sleep, another rough night but he and slept side by side with my boob in his mouth. Today he was a lot better or at least that is what the babysitter said. I was feeling horrible about the whole babysitter situation because I do like her and I like how she takes care of Max but she is always in space. So I was telling her this morning about how my hours were getting cut and yada yada and she said..oh well I am in class all day Monday and Wednesday and I said in my head. : Wednesday-now that is one of the days you watch Max..when were you going to tell me since I work that day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But I just looked at her and realized she is doing her best since she is in space and so the higher ups gacve me that moment of truth to know that I have made the right decision. Again, it is not her as a babysitter but it is the fact that I can never depend on her. Then she said to me (as I am walking out the door)..Oh and I forgot but I need to leave at 4:15 pm. Well, again it is not her fault..she is just this way. All in all I am really going to miss her and she is amazing with Max but I need to be able to depend on her. These decisions stink.

But all in all, life is good.

Let me start ofdf by saying there is no baby self-soothing in this home.I guess Max is either going through a growth spurt or his gums itch so badly that he wants to nurse and nurse. He has been nursing 5 or 6 times a night for the past 3 nights. We, meaning Max and I, have moved to the soare bedroom to sleep because he will go down and then get up an hour later or even 10 minutes. I was trying to get up each time and nurse him and go back to bed but then this is what happened:

“PSYCHO NO SLEEP MOM ARRIVED” and so I decided the best thing to do was get some sleep, which means having Max sleeping next to me. So now I am getting back to my old self and not the crying, emotional, depressed, psycho, sensitive, moody, bitchy, freaky and irritable can go away.

For Scott and I, we have always parented bu our heart and our gutt. Our gutt sayd that Max does not feel well and so he shold be near his momma. He also wants to be carried and soothed so for now Project Self-Soothe is being put on hold.

If anybody has some good stuff about teething that they want to share: Bring it on. Just as an FYI!~ I give him frozen fruit to help with the teething, teething tablets and well that is about it. Oh and I do rub gums.