When will I ever learn to just let go? The party was great but I found myself so caught up in my own head that a part of me wasn’t even at the party..I was in my head..
This is the drama in my head.
Is everyone going to be ok? Will everyone have fun? Will everyone get along? Will everything be ok? Do I look fat? Dioes everyone know that I am crazy? Can people tell that I have anxiety? Did people really want to come and the list goes on..UGH!
On a sane day..I can say Who Cares but on a crazy day..I feed into it and it gets worse..and the merry go round goes faster abd faster. The good part is that all the kids had so much and Scott’s dad sent ponies for the kids to ride. Wow! I know that was his way of saying, I cannot be there so he sent the ponies instead.
I am so sick of getting choked by my anxiety. Please tell me other people in the world have this to.
Anyway, a huge thanks to , , Cecily, and her family for driving an hour to come to the party. I wil post pics tomorrow.
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