I could not sleep last night and then when Max got up to nurse..I felt so sick that I had to leave him room with him and come downstairs and get something to drink-I had eaten siome rice cakes with Peanut Butter at 8 pm and they were not sitting well with me and well then..BABY WAS UP AND READY TO PLAY! So we sat in front of the TV at 2:15 am until 4:15 am. It was bad and I felt so tired and horrible that Max was up. Even worse was he was totally off schedule this morning. Usually we wake at 5:45 am and nurse till 6 am. But this morning we slept till 7:30 am and it was all downhill.
Max did not want to go to sleep this morning instead he wanted to scream and scream. I have to say that a few times this morning I had to sit him on the ground and walk out the door and count to 10. He did not want to nurse, lay down, sit up, wlak around..nothing and it was so hot outside. I drove around for an hour just so he could sleep since he was so over tired he could not fall asleep on his own.
There were a few times this morning where tears just started falling down my cheeks because I was so tired and the baby was screaming. It sucked and I felt so guilty for not having any patience. I still don’t have any patience. I just felt like the Dept. of Human Services was going to come running through my door and scream, “You are a bad mom!!”. But it did not happen.
It is tough when I don’t get enough sleep. I cannot function. I cannot habndle my emotions or anyone elses for that matter.
So on a good note..I made a soup today and here it is.
Local and Organic
black eyes peas
carrots
onions
garlic
butternut squash
beets
Yummy!
And tons of great spices and so that is dinner for a few nights. Plus I grilled some hormone free chicken and put that in the fridge as well. Great some dinner for Scott as well. Anything to make the job easier.
Please tell me you Mommy’s sometimes feel like your gonna lose your shit too!
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