We are back. I was a bad blogger but bewteen a mild case of depression, Max’s teething AND THERFORE LACK OF SLEEP, work and just feeling blah..well we took a blogger vacation.

Not much has changed here, Max is getting cuter everyday. He has begun to lay his head on my chest when he is tired. Oh boy that just makes me melt.

He also hugs me when I come home from work. He hugs and then looks at my face then hugs me again and then puts his hand down my shirt. Now that makes me melt.

I think it was also a hard week since the babysitter bailed for two days and it just made me so upset since I had so much work to do and could not get it done. But life goes on.

Max and I went for run this am. I put him in the running stroller and toook off for about 40 minutes. It felt great to let go and just run. Max just chills the whole time.

Then Max and I went to Trader Joes nd got lots of yummy food, then we went to the farmers market and got even more..then we met friends for lunch and are some yummy food. ALTHOUGH MAX ATE A LEAF AND THEN PROJECTILE PUKED..but other than that it was a blast.

We then met my Dad for a trip to the playground and Max was on the swing for an hour. I swear he feel asleep. He loves the baby swing so much.

Today, I felt like I was the best mom in the world.

Bath tub fun

Originally uploaded by Maxsmom

Max has always loved the bath tub. Actually, last night Max and I got into our master bedroom tub and put on the whirlpool. It was fun and funny. Max put his hands against the jets and played and splashed and splashed. Of course, as always he tried to eat the tub, the faucet and anything that is silver.

I have to buy those slip and slide things for the bottom of the tub because he does not want to sit anymore. He just wants to pull himself up and stand.

What does everyone else do?

Today I made chicken, carrots and apples and made a great ouree in the mini cuisinart. So I will let you know how Max likes it tomorrow. As for the homefront, all is well. The babysitter called out sick and luckily Scott was around today so he could watch him. But she called 30 minutes before she was supposed to be here. UGH that pissed me off. Anyway, she is still sick and so Max is coming to work with me tomorrow. It makes me feel bad because I only work 2 days a week and so bringing him to work makes me feel like I am not doing a good job. But it is what it is.

I do not really have anything exciting to report. Max is crawling everywhere and getting into to everything. I am excited for this weekend because I just love holidays even though we are doing nothing.

So with that being said, I am off to relax after a long day.

Well first off yesterday I made amaranth, blackstrap mollasses, pears, cinnamon and breast milk for Max’s breakfast. Yummy! It was his power breakfast. The amaranth was such an alkalizing meal for my little guy. He is still n ot too big on feeding himself. Of course, he likes to play with the spoon, suck on it, gum it and thrown it on the floor but he does not feed himself. If I put the bowl in front of him, well he enjoys playing with the food then wiping it in his hair and then throwing the bowl.

As for me, I woke up this am and just wanted to give the big F**K to a few people. I just woke up that way and I still feel that way. I almost feel like it is anger that has been going on for a while but it is just not worth the fight. I am trying to think positive about stuff. I ahve a great life and a healthy family. I am trying not to be that girl that whines but some stuff just pisses me off no matter how much I know it should not but it does. GRUNT!!

Sometimnes, I just feel like not refraining but I do.

As for my little guy, he is so cute. When Max is tired he will lay his head on the ground but in the past week he comes over and lays his head on my chest. It makes me melt from the inside out. Today I was rocking him and he was sitting on my lap and I was rubbing his back (one of things I do to settle him down) and then he snuggled up next to me and laid his head on my chest as I was humming..BA BA BLACK SHEEP..well let me just say it was the cutest things I had ever seen. He closed his eyes and I rubbed his head until he let out one of those breaths that scream..MAMA, I AM SO RELAXED YOU CAN NOW SWADDLE ME AND PUT ME IN MY CRIB. And so I did. To top it off, it is nice in Philadelphia today and so the windows are open and I can hear the trees and the birds.

So with all of the anger pouring out..I can still stop and appreciate the little things in life.

I talk so much about Max eating that I fail to talk about myself and my own eating habits. It goes something like this: Snack, snack, snack, snack and snack. I feel like I am either cooking with a baby on the hip, shoving food so fast in my mouth before Max wants to get down from his high chair or I am on the run. After a few weeks of the emotional roller coaster, my hubby, Scott sat me down and said,” Listen Sweetie, you need to eat meals. You need to eat protein. You cannot survive on almonds, Ezekiel bread, soy crisps and soy milk. It does not work for you. You are nursing and working out. Your body is holding onto to every ounce of fat and food since your are not giving it enough. And no hummus or black bean dip is not enough either. And no brown rice protein is not enough for you either. Oh and avocado cannot be your only protein at a meal. ” UGH.

With all of the knowledge I have about nutrition and all the great advice I give to other people and all the people I have helped, one would think I could help myself. BUT NO!!

So with that being said, I ate eggs with garlic and onions on a piece of yeast free rye toast. I made a promise to eat protein at every meal and eat meals. I am so concerned about Max’s meals and getting him enough food that I have begun to neglect myself. Plus, I was snacking so much that my body was constantly hungry.

I feel lucky to have Scott. I am lucky that he knows when to give me advice. He always allows me to bang my head against the wall on my own and thank goodness I made him read, “Men are from Mars and women are from Venus the second week of our relationship because he just gets that I need to figure it out. But man, did it feel good to hear his words of wisdom because he is my partner and my best friend.

Life is good and I think life will be better when I have some more protein.